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08 November 2012

Im still miss you Jia Jia

Title: Im still miss you Jia Jia

Im still missing Jia Jia :( Been thinking of her since yesterday. :( just dont feel like staying at home. Once i step home, i dont see her im so sad. :( :( :( I miss her licking my face, my mouth, my hands, my legs. I miss feeding her, carry her, play with her and talking to her. I miss bathing her, I miss taking her down for a walk. :( :( :( I just miss her so much. I really hope and wish to see her again.

She is the only one that can accompany me on weekends. Now that she is not by my side, I HATE WEEKENDS. WEEKENDS SUX TO THE MAX.

I seriously have no mood for anything. Fk whoever is irritating me.

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07 November 2012

I miss you Jia Jia

Title: I miss you Jia Jia

I should just take fake mc for once today to accompany my lovely cute jia jia. :( I miss her so much now. Her previous owner have came to bring her back already :( All thanks to my mum. My mum is just like roti prata. The way she talk flip here and there. To think it is like abandon a child like that. :( :( Im so sad...

I rushed home from work just to see her and carry her just for the last time.. My mum dont allow me to send her just now. I got so pissed off. I said to her this "is the last time seeing her just let me go". Jia Jia lick me the last time before she go back to her previous owner. :( I love you Jia Jia. Im so sorry :( :( I hope i can see you again.

Im not in the good mood to carry on. I cant control my emotional now :'( I will stop here.

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28 October 2012

exercise

Title: exercise

Been a vegetarian for 2 weeks already. I still cant get use to it. But i will try my best. I make a prayer and i will be a vegetarian for 1 year. Some more someone said will lose 50kg if i become a vegetarian. I dont know if he still remember this. Anyway, dont forget our agreement. I have been keeping it by heart. Been trying to eat all kind of veg and trying to start eating fruits as well.

On-top of that i have been gym-ing as well. Been going to office gym in the morning then start work in the afternoon. So tiring but i have to do it. Running, dumbbell and legs training are what i have been doing. I just want to stay healthy and dont want to burden anyone.

Yesterday went for morning run with my colleague. suppose to run from choa chu kang to bukit gombak but my colleague said it is far so we decided to run around choa chu kang. We didnt really run much but it was fun. :) we have also mentioned gonna get a bicycle for night cycling if possible.

Hmm, im going for a run shortly.. :) Cos my aunty gonna visit me real soon and this will cause me unable to exercise for about a week :( I need to keep my stamina there. cos once i stop, i will lose my stamina again. Sign.. Being female is just so troublesome.

Sigh.. A liar will always be a liar. Whatever it is. I have done my part.. Tomorrow work again. long weekends are over. :( Sad... ok gonna stop here.. Im feeling kinda angry and sad. But i can only keep this to myself to prevent any shit again. Sigh!

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15 October 2012

vegetarian

Title: vegetarian

Im glad everything clear out.. Now that we have an agreement set, I believe everything will change from bad to good.. :) Even my mum know that i smoke. I feel so much better after telling her. I feel so guilty when im keeping it from her. So friday i decided to tell her.

Anyway, I have decided to stop eating meat and start eating vegetables and fruits. I hate it so much but for my health, for my husband to be i need to change. I have been eating meat only since young and now is time for me to stop and start eating healthy.. I believe i can do it. I will do my best.. I have agreement with my husband to be and i need to achieve it.. oh ya, no more junk food as well.. (all my all time favor no more..) Fighting..

Dont get me wrong, im still free thinker.. Is just that i want to be healthy.. :) Gym-ing is compulsory as well.. Unless my auntie visit me for the month, then i have no choice but to stop gym for a week.

I think being a vegetarian i will gain more weight cos of flour intake. Eating meat dont really help me gain weight but i lose weight. So, we shall see.. lol..

Last week work was seriously hell.. I was so stress up.. I think I need to pester my boss starting from tomorrow to learn more. I can only manage my team as i know what we are doing but as for another team I really dont know what are they doing. If one day i really need to take over both team Im dead. So i need to learn learn learn.. Since he's back from hoilday.. Now is time for me to pester him.. :) I really cant handle it while he was away for a week. I was so stress up. (cos i know nth about other team).

Ok time for me to sleep. Tomorrow start eating vegetables and fruits. Then I will tell my boss i wanna revert back to normal working hours. (11.30am to 8pm) :p Have been working from 9.30am to 7pm for months plus.. I cant take it.. While he was away for one week, I have been working from 9am to 7pm (sometimes, 9.30am to 7.30pm). Good night

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07 October 2012

Whatever

Title: whatever

Boring saturday.. Been playing with my puppy, facebook games and watching videos and movies. Well well well..

I dont know what the fuck am i doing, i went to restore my samsung to factory default. Everything gone.. Lucky, my contacts i backup in a software call Idrive.. :) But the rest GONE.. Kinda lazy to re-do my setting so i gave up..

Oh well, whatever you said i will just take it. Im not gonna bother you already. I will just focus on my mum and work. I was offer a job and salary is 2.5k and above. It is a team leader and perm position. It was from my manager, it's kinda weird they offer me this position and in another department. Well, i rejected the offer.

I asked them, if i decided to stay in the same department what's their plan for me. Was told they gonna have me to be perm and more team leader role as the team will grow bigger and the role will deter me from calling customer. As for now, i guess i will still stay as what im now. Im glad that the company do take care of our career path.

I wanna drink drank drunk.. Guess for now i can only do that alone as my mum yesterday suddenly have some stroke symptom again. I dare not go out. Sigh.. And CB she is still smoking. The doctor already said if she is on medication and if she smoke, the medicine wont work. "These" ppl really make me wanna pick up as a heavy smoker then they understand.

Sigh!! Anyway, im still thinking of something the whole freaking night and i really dont get it. In a relationship, communication at least once in a week (since we hardly meet) and sharing problem is childish. This make me think. I really dont get it. Im still thinking actually. It keep me very awake while thinking.

Im gonna stop here for now. bye

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