What a day at work

Title: What a day at work


Been busy at work lately.. And getting very pissed off... Just dont understand why is there no rules regarding on work. Ppl like to come to work late and go home early.. Worse come to worse, when they want to leave early they come and disturb u. Awwww...


I seriously hate to be a team leader, it's suck.. When you are real busy you just cant do your work properly. Ppl asking question that is just awwww... Things like duplicated sale you cannot check ah? Oh pls, there are soo many sales coming in per day and how the hell can i remember all customer. And we have already said so many times, duplicated cases just void the sale and indicated as duplicated sale. Why are ppl still not listening and complaining.. Aww..


We as a team leader have to also do what you ppl doing (calling customer as well) and we have additional tasks to handle. When we want to start doing reports and knock off at 9pm you ppl then start doing all your new sales while most of the time you are facebooking or watching videos. When we want to go off early (at 9pm) you ppl delay. When we are busy and need to complete our work, you ppl come and disturb and said we are slow. Can we go home? (when it is not even 9pm).. Awwwww


And please, im taking as a team leader role when i was only working for 3 weeks plus which i dont have any training. You ppl came earlier than me and have been using the system longer should know them more than me. Dont give that attitude that im useless.. I learn as time goes by. (we all learn as time goes by) Why do you ppl want us to tell you ppl everything. Cant you ppl chk 1st before asking? Pls be more responsible at work..


I hate ppl to disturb me at work when im busy and serious .. It's piss me off.. Awww.. Stop coming to me and ask if you can go home early.. Im not the boss. Like i said, ask the boss..


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Copyright © 21 December 2011, Wednesday 12:47AM
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bodyache

Title: bodyache


Im on mc... sigh!! Sad to say im down with high fever. Yesterday was 38.1 and i was hoping it will go down so that i can go to work.. But who know it went up to 38.5 :( and woke up with sore throat, flu and cough.. I cant sleep well the whole night.. Due to terrible headache and bodyache.. The feeling is freaking shit.. :( Been sleeping the whole afternoon.. But fever still haven go away.. But at least with antibiotics, fever and sore throat is much better liao :)


I wanted to go to work as today manpower was freaking low.. Looking at the sms received most of the temp staff is not turning up for work.. Frm 9 ppl to 3 ppl working.. This is soo pathetic. Temp staff are like, they happy they come to work they not happy they dont want to come. -.-"


I dont know if it my menses that cause this fever a not. Honestly since 15 nov till now im still having it.. This sux... Something is not right somewhere.. I need to call the doctor tomorrow and ask already. I hope she dont ask me to go down and visit her tomorrow i will screw her..


Ok! I wanna go and rest already.. I miss my fat hubby and oh HAPPY ANNIVERSARY :) I LOVE YOU!!!! Muack muack!!


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Copyright © 05 December 2011, Monday 07:05PM
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im so tired

Title: im so tired


Im soo soo sooo sooo sooo sooo tired.. I just dont know why... Not enf sleep i guess.. Yesterday, i had a terrible dream. Awake with tears.. Hmmm.... But i cant remember what the dream all about.. Only recall that the location was at my ex-company.. With ppl im soo close with.. Of course my fat hubby was inside too.. hmmmm...


I need to start shopping for xmas gift but im sooo tired to do soo.. :( Dont feel like celebrating xmas.. ><" So i dont have to spend money and i can stop thinking what to get for this and this.. lol!!


Hmm, im started to get a little angry on hw ppl work.. Why do they always want thing the last min? Pls la, if we in-charge no need to contact customer i dont mind doing everything. -.-" That's why i wanna be low profile.. I dont like to be leader..


Hmm, i have finally port my number frm starhub to singtel. Im getting v pissed off for not able to get any signal at my workplace.. For not able to surf while on the go.. So goodbye starhub.. Of course i do it without contract.. Cos i dont know what phone to get.. :p I shall wait and see :D


Ok!! I wanna go n sleep.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 29 November 2011, Tuesday 11:11PM
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suppose to look forward for weekends

Title: suppose to look forward for weekends


:( I was so looking forward for this weekend.. But it turn out to be very very disappointing.. :( I fall very sick on thursday but i still went to work.. I was so sick that my colleague was also asking about it.. My head, whole body and back ache soo much.. Feeling cold and having high fever.. But i was telling myself i need to recover by friday cos i wanna see my fat cut hubby and meeting my sister..


I cant sleep well on thursday night but at least friday im much better.. Still have fever and cough but at least no body ache..


Manage to see my sister at night and after that went to find my cut fat hubby.. But today turn out to be so disappointing day.. He is not well and he got toothache.. Which... erm nvm, i dont wanna repeat myself again cos i just dont want to piss him off.. I knew something is nt right when he woke up in the morning.. which i was already awake long ago.. Dear dear, u cant hide anything from me.. I love you too much that i know what's happening.. Believe he is not having enf sleep and he is too stress out at work already.. therefore, i decided to go home and let him have a good rest tonight so that he can get back to work with good health.. No pain, enf sleep and stress free.. The moment you hug me i control my tear cos it is just soo hurt that i can only accompany you, see you for such a short moment.. :( Is ok, we can meet each other again next week (maybe).. Pls have enf sleep and stop gaming till so late la.. Take good care of yourself..


Anyway, damn my menses is giving me problem.. It's been 11 days and im still having it.. The medicine given to me is just so pointless.. It only help with the super heavy flow problem i have (the heavy flow is so just horrible that every 30mins or 1hr i need to change).. I admit that heavy flow problem seem better for this month after taking the medicine given but im still bleeding.. :( I seriously hate my internal body soo much.. I sleep late also got problem, i sleep early also have problem.. Hey body what do you want? you give me problem for my heart, chest, stomach, lung, next what you want? liver, kidney? NB... I take extra care even more problem then i rather dont take care.. -.-" angry sia!!


Awww... Just cant take it.. Dear dear, i seriously love you and miss you soo much.. Dont wanna mentioned that just nw cos im controlling my tears ><" But seriously I MISS YOU SOOOOOO SOOO MUCH!!! MUACK... GET WELL SOON...


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Copyright © 26 November 2011, Saturday 09:45PM
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Afternoon shift..

Title: Afternoon shift..


Im so tired.. Anyway, tomorrow im afternoon shift.. hehehe!! Today im freaking busy.. :( Wanna try to clear my old pending sales but always got new sales come in then i need to give it out to everyone.. At times still need to think who to issue to.. ><"


Then at the end of the day have to do reports.. ><" But is ok.. I still like my job.. lol!!


I miss my cute hubby and I just love him sooo much :D Muack Muack... I cant wait to see him.. muhahahaha..


Ok, i shall stop here.. Good night and goodbye :D


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Copyright © 23 November 2011, Wednesday 10:58PM
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Taking over...

Title: Taking over...


Im still awake.. :D Tomorrow start work at 12pm, so can stay up a bit late.. :D Was playing blackshot just now then saw ming de, played a game with him.. haha!


Oh no, was told tomorrow (22 now) im officially taking over one team.. >_<" Doing reports, issues sales out to all of us, handle escalation cases and reply email(if needed).. Not even one month of working.. Awww.. By right was told end of nov but due to the in-charge fell and i dont what's his status this afternoon i have to take over. Anyway, he told me he is leaving end of this month as well.. Well done, he left over soooooo many old sales for us.. Good job.. I dont know hw am i suppose to do it.. I shall see hw tomorrow..


I still love my job after all.. Just have to be careful as at times there are changes we might not aware off.. hahaha.. Today was quite a busy day but i still have a bit of time for facebook :D


I miss my cute cute hubby.. I cant wait to see him.. I cant wait to hug him once again.. :D Waiting waiting.. Hehehe!!


Dear Dear, I LOVE YOU :D............................


Ok time for me to sleep... Good nite all


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Copyright © 22 November 2011, Monday 12:08AM
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so fast..

Title: so fast..


Sad to say, tomorrow start work already.. Cannot accompany dear dear.. Have to wait till next week if im nt wrong.. I love you dear dear.. Muack..


Tomorrow started shift work already.. Usually start working frm 9.30am to 7pm.. If OT end at 9pm.. But now started another shift, frm 12pm to 9pm.. I would like to work 12pm to 9pm.. I think it's better.. I dont like today work morning tomorrow work afternoon then next day work morning again.. :( Im working morning shift tomorrow.. Yawn...


Oh no, 1st of December im moving to serangoon to work.. It's just soo far... :( Well there is no place for us at raffles.. Sad to say we have to move.. :( NVM.. There are pros and cons there.. Travel take time but i still enjoy my work.. That's the most important thing i believe. :) Think positive :D


I was busy downloading songs and transferring it to my iphone :D Hehe!! Ok.. Nth much to blog... Time to stop.. bye!!!


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Copyright @copy; 20 November 2011, Sunday 09:53PM
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Busy day

Title: Busy day


oh before i start, Sunday i forget to say, welcome back.. Im back in action :p Yeah.. Dear dear been waiting for this i believe :D


Anyway, today went to work.. Im just always looking forward to work.. :D Yes, today was not a gd day i admit.. From my team, one staff have already said last week that she is not coming to work and one on leave and we are hell busy.. 4 staff working like crazy.. Suppose to OT but im too tired and my whole body is aching so i decided to OT tomorrow..


I started the day with a freaking disturb called that im helping my colleague to call. Again a promise callback was failed.. I kena from this customer :( Well, basically due to appointment issue. Anyway, i manage to help this customer out after all his nag and he ended up compliment me.. :D I believe this is our fault. Service lapse issue..


But of course compare this to what i have the last is just a small issue.. :D I can accept it.. :D Anyway, i also request for shift work.. After talking to my team leader i notice the company is soooo awwwwwwwww.... Shift work is still on planning.. I hope we have cos i just love it.. :D I HATE TO TAKE TRAIN IN THE MORNING.....................


Yesterday, i fainted and fell at home.. I think i hurt my back.. It's painful.. I just dont understand why i was suddenly black-out and my mind and eyes was switch off that i dont know what i did.. I only re-call i went to the toilet and wanted to close the door but i suddenly fell and my mum was helping me out.. Everything happened so freaking fast.. Damn.. It almost happened the 2nd time, but lucky i was on bed the 2nd time.. Rest for awhile and im off kicking :D My back is a problem now.. :( damn.. Hope it will be fine by tomorrow :)


I seriously MISS my hubby so so much... Aww.. I feel like missing work to accompany him.. lol!! This is how much i miss him.. Dear dear.... I MISS U........ MISS U BADLY :( I need ur massage, hugs and kisses..................................... Cant wait to see u on Friday.. :) MUACK MUACK...


Ok time to sleep soon.. Nitez all..


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Copyright @copy; 08 November 2011, Tuesday 10:15PM
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bored

Title: bored


Im bored.. Very bored.. lol! Im still not use to not working on weekends and public holiday. And of course waking up in the morning to get to work. Im still trying to get use to it..


I enjoyed my new job now. But then honestly, im still trying hard to accept the surrounding people im working with. Some are friendly but some are just an ass hole. I still love the friends i met in the green.. Well, there are always pros and cons.. Is ok.. I use to let ppl bully.. I shall let them bully.. At least i learn new things everyday.. Newbie will always get bully from what i was told..


Anyway, Im seriously bored.. V V V bored......


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Copyright @copy; 06 November 2011, Sunday 05:05PM
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When im freaking bored

Title: When im freaking bored


Im freaking bored now.. Or i should say since afternoon.. Just nw, was playing game with the guild but i left half way.. The mood is not there to raid plus the terrible pain came.. Maybe cos i nv sleep and feeling worry.. Strange thing is im only started feeling a little sleepy now.. haha..


Today basically i did nth much.. Morning went for interview den reach home look for job again.. Finding the 3rd one? hahaha.. Nia this is just in case i fail today's interview.. Cos.. hmm oh well.. Be gentle can be a problem.. haha..


Anyway, when im bored.. Im here... To blog.. Anyway, im gonna stay awake again for today..


nvm.. FK U!! I shall stop here.. BYE!


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Copyright @copy; 23 September 2011, Friday 01:34AM
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Hmmm..

Title: Hmmm..


Im freaking bored.. No one willing to entertain me.. Tomorrow gonna have a final job interview.. It's at 9am.. Well Done.. I dont have to sleep already.. I tried sleeping early on the previous interview but i cant fall asleep.. So I didnt sleep too..


2nd job im waiting for next month to start training (still waiting nt confirm).. :p I took up 2 jobs cos i feel like it.. Anyway 2nd job is a freelance so ya.. :p


Suppose to go find dear dear but he bo sms me so i nv go.. :( Miss him but it seem like he is sick so i dont wanna bother him.. He is trying hard to slim down.. Well Done dear dear.. Im proud of U.. However dear dear, like what i said to you, start from small.. So, do it slowly.. (dont believe u google it)You haven been doing any long distance walk or exercise for ages u cant just do it so fast u will break ur body (which it proven.. U are dwn now..) I used to be a cross country runner too.. Im asked to run 10 rounds from start but i cant, so i do it slowly.. Today maybe 3 rounds then next run try to improve by running 1 more. It takes time... U have to know ur body condition well.. And after exercise do some stretching if ur legs/ muscle hurt.. Before exercise also.. But u dont want to listen >_<"


I wanna help u.. I wanna do it together with u.. Dont rush.. Im willing to do it with u.. :p


Ok! I have enf of posting.. Gonna stop here and find something else to do.. Bye all!


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Copyright © 22 September 2011, Thursday 12:53AM
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Feel like moving out

Title: Feel like moving out


Staying at home is even worse for me. I want to play my game peacefully also cant. I dont go out and spend money also kena fk. I spend money also kena fk.. What is this? Ppl warn me asking me stop using computer at night.. FK may as well kill me then.. Ask me to sleep early and play it in the morning whereby i dont have to switch on the light.


I was told cos electricity bill went up. It does nt make any different at all.. (i pay for the bill la.. But u dont want.. wtf..) I cant sleep at night.. Im already so use to sleeping in the morning.. Sigh!


Seriously, i feel like moving out.. Out of this place.. FML... Now that i know why i should communicate even lesser with her.. I cant fight back.. I cant do anything i like.. DAMMIT... Now i have to switch off everything and do nth.. FK.. This is shit.. I dont know what i can do now? Just iphone alone dont help.. (no wireless.. 3G sux.. oh my) I cant watch tv too. Well done.. Life sux..


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Copyright © 07 September 2011, Wednesday 01:12AM
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ignore

Title: ignore


Ignore ignore ignore..


Im way to lazy to blog.. Have lots of thing to blog but then... I dont know hw to start... Nvm.. Forget it...


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Copyright © 04 September 2011, Sunday 06:45AM
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exercise

Title: exercise


Well, i hv no right for say.. So i will just shut up.. Anyway, im going to try exercise (running) again.. Meeting mei tomorrow for running session. I try once last week but some prob so i stop.. I wanna try again.. If the fact that i cant run i Lan Lan.. This time round i will puff before i run..


Tomorrow gonna run till i cannot take it.. This is another way to de-stress and forget everything.. :p


Anyway, I wanna blog more but sometimes, it is damn hard to do so. Cos i might hurt anyone.. Damn.. Maybe i shall keep quiet and smile :) Listen and shut my mouth.. Yes.. I will do it..


Nth much to blog.. Shall stop here and carry-on another time.. bye!


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Copyright © 23 August 2011, Tuesday 02:42AM
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miss u, worry

Title: miss u, worry


Missing my lovey dear dear so much... Aww.. Haven been talking for like 3 days.. Haven been seeing each other for like 1 week already.. :( :(


SMS him no reply.. Called him no ans.. :( Waiting for him in skype.. Waiting for him in game.. But no sign of him... where r u? LOL!! Maybe he is sleeping already... haha


Aiya.. I also go and sleep liao.. Dear dear... I MISS U BADLY...


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Copyright © 11 August 2011, Thursday 05:23AM
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damn shag

Title: damn shag


Yesterday was a public holiday and i have to work.. Ok la.. At least got double pay :p I dont know why but im freaking damn shag... Shag shag shag... Body is so tired.. Waiting for my hair to dry up.. After this gonna sleep already..


Reach home at around 4am++.. Went for supper with the rest.. we talked and we waited for 2am ppl to knock off.. We went to Han's for supper.. Hahaha! So long not in office so happening.. hahaha! Joker are still joker :p Lamer are still lamer.. Seriously, i always withdraw my resignation cos of them.. But.. this time round i have already make up my mind already.. I have plans what i wanna do already.. I gonna go for it.. I dont want to waste anymore time.. We may not knw what will happen the next day.. Do it now then later..


I want a silent resignation.. Dont want ppl to know.. So far it seem like ppl knows.. Dammit.. Just want to leave quietly.. Dont want ppl to say this and that.. Later i withdraw again...


hmm, there seem to be an increment on July.. I haven received my letter.. Waiting.. This gonna determine my resignation also.. Awww...


ok la.. Im seriously tired.. Wanna stop here and sleep already.. bye all..


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Copyright © 10 August 2011, Wednesday 06:14AM
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Hard Gay

Title: Hard Gay


Feeling kinda down.. Hmm.. I dont know why.. It could be cos im still sick with not enf sleep.. Medicine is nt working.. Puiz.. BUT... I was watching hard gay on youtube and it cheer me up :) "say say say" Hoooo... So funny la.. :)


Sigh! So fast friday den sat and sunday.. I hate sat and sun cos my mum is nt working and she likes to nag and nag.. damn irritating.. And she love to repeat and repeat and repeat.. Worse i cant overwrite her.. aww..


Wanna go and watch hard gay again.. :p SAY SAY SAY.... HOOOOO.. :p


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Copyright © 29 July 2011, Friday 01:35AM
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hungry

Title: hungry


Oh man, im hungry... Looking at my room, i can only see tibits... But i cant eat them.. My throat is still freaking pain and the stupid cough and flu is still not going off.. hmm.. I shall see if there is any cup noodles :p


Im going back to work real soon.. Good and bad.. Good is i can get to see everyone again.. Bad is, oh well u should know... hmm.. I have lots of doctor appt coming up next.. I need to get my cough recover fully if nt the specialist doctor goona scold me again..


Haven been sleeping well for the past 1 week.. Due to this stupid flu and cough.. The block nose is freaking irritating.. Chest pain is on and off.. Believe it could be due to cough.. But no worries im fine... :D


I wanna go find cup noddles liao.. bye all..


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Copyright © 27 July 2011, Wednesday 03:47AM
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what now?

Title: what now?


Oh my, why do so many ppl have so many problems? Cousin ran away frm home.. Facebook, chat with him he fucking ignore.. WTF..


can i just ignore everything? Heck care.. I dont think i can? Fan ren la... Sigh!


Sigh! My mum is always nagging and nagging this add-ons to more fan... Sigh! Anyway, fk it la..


Sigh! Stupid flu and cough is nt going off.. Dammit..


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Copyright © 21 July 2011, Thursday 12:47AM
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hmm..

Title: hmm..


My husband to be aka Mr potato told me why didnt i blog. LOL!! I really dont knw what to blog and im lazy to blog too.. LOL!!


Was with dear dear yesterday the whole day.. Shit me for falling sick.. Yesterday im freaking weak and shag out.. Down with fever, cough and flu.. But.. Without failed, i still get lunch cum dinner for my lovely husband to be and his mum.. Our good day always past soo fast..


Dear dear, i miss you so much... Wanna see you everyday.. Like what u told me :) Hahaha!!


Just now the rest was raid-ing but i dont want to join.. Freaking sick.. Had asthma and the stupid flu/block nose is soo irritating. Hope fever and everything goes away asap.. Cos i wanna kiss dear dear more.. :)


Anyway, Congratz them for killing the Herald boss in River of souls.. They have been trying for 3 weeks and finally it's down... Good for them..


I wanna go rest.. Wait for dear dear to reach home then maybe play game with him (if only im still awake).. Bye all


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Copyright © 19 July 2011, Tuesday 01:11AM
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thinking

Title: thinking


Lots of things happened but i dont know how to start.. ><" Better not to start i guess.. Past are past... Anyway, what i wanna said is, dream can be true.. hmm...


Dammit.. Got the flu virus frm my mum.. Throat is freaking pain since yesterday and im down with flu.. Dammit.. Cough got better but it's nw back to square one again.. As for chest pain, oh well it's always on and off..


Sigh! My cousin ran away frm home once again.. Mervin, i really dont know why u are doing this.. Your mum is freaking worry about u.. Pls go home la.. I hope didi dont monkey see monkey do..


To be honest, i wanna help but i dont know how to help.. Sigh! Feel like slapping your friend hard and wake him up.. damn


Lots of xin shi but i just have to keep quiet.. Seriously, i dont know what to do... How fan ah... Have try to play game to forget it but it is not helping.. Try to go out walk walk but it is not helping too.. Speak out, i think it will make thing worse..



Anyway, what i need to do is, learn to forgive and forget.. whahaha.. :p


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Copyright © 17 July 2011, Sunday 12:39AM
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I love you

Title: I love you


We had a quarreled in the afternoon(was that a quarrel?). But like what u said, speak up will make u feel better.


I love you dear. I love the red and white roses :) and thank you for the fish porridge. I love the surprise and hopping there is more to come.. :) But no matter what i still love you from the bottom of my heart. Muack.


Thank you for everything.. MUACK.. LOVE YOU!!! :) :) :) (SMILE)


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Copyright © 19 June 2011, Sunday 05:01AM
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Said A and do B

Title: Said A and do B


Sigh! My chest pain is getting frm bad to worse at time. The pain sometime can make me go freaking angry. Like yesterday and today. Can you imagine when you are still coughing and your chest is in pain. Combine them together this is the freaking uncomfortable pain i had. Can cry out loud. Just dont get it why the pain is not going off.


Anyway, i just dont get it why do ppl like to say A and end up doing B? damn. Hate it.


Wanna try to blend in for game but it seem soo difficult. Damn difficult. Sigh! Nvm, im the noob.. haha..


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Copyright © 17 June 2011, Friday 01:10AM
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sad post

Title: sad post


Before i start, some how today whole day my mind is full of u my dear. I miss u so badly. Till now im still thinking about u.. ><" Yesterday seem to be dreaming about u. There are bad and goods one.. Im nt use to not nagging at u and nt reminding u to eat medicine and reminding you to watch ur diet and smoke less and of course to sleep early.. Aww.. I dont want to stress u anymore.


Sigh! My mum is making me going crazy. She keeps on nagging at me. Aww.. She dont understand what im feeling now. Keep on asking me to check on my leave approval and how long im taking leave. I dont want to tell her im taking unpaid leave as she will strongly disagree and start fucking me. (she also dont want me to leave the current company) She dont know my health problem. I dont want her to know as well..


Letting her know will make her worry, make her nag even more, make her get mad at me even more, make her get very superstitious (which I HATE IT). I tried telling her about this chest pain i had since a week ago, she start it off fucking me and asking me to apply mopiko (im like hub? mopiko). Oh well, as a obedient daughter i listen to her. But i stop doing so as it is not working and it is causing my chest to get very hot. She fucked me. This is just why i dont have much communication with her since young. Whatever things i said i get fuck 1st. She dont understand and start fucking ppl. (This is just why im so quiet and dont wish to talk much. Unless u r my super close friends /cousin. cos im scare i get fuck) It happen the same with relative. That's why they dont really communicate alot with my mum.


I thank her for taking care of me since im 5 years old or 6 i think. Yes she is my step mother but of course i really appreciate her alot. To be honest, everytime i see ppl with happy family. with father and mother with them i felt so upset about myself. Even ppl with just mother or just father with them, they still can joke and communicate well. Why i cant? Sigh!


I wanna rest well at home but with her around is really impossible. Maybe in the afternoon that's when she is working it is still ok. But at night FK.. HELL... That's why usually when she nag my mouth are always shut to prevent things get worse.. Sigh!


Today went to the doctor again. As the chest pain got worse. This time round i decided nt to go back to NUH cos they sux. cant even see my record that i have a heart problem and still dare to say they cant hear any abnormal heart beat. So i went to AH. The doctor of course can hear my abnormal heart beat. He said i have a asthma/bronchitis attack and leading to have chest pain and discomfort. Plus i have ongoing chronic cough and even higher chance of getting an attack. I have to use my inhaler every morning and night till my cough is gone. It is a must even i dont have attack. That's why if u have a cough for about a week dont wait already better see a doctor. If nt it might be like me. It will leads to lung and all sort of infection too. ><"


Basically, in short no one can understand me. esp when a person is sick trying to explain but no one gets it. That's why keeping quiet at time help, cos no one fuck u and u can think better, able to resolve ur own issue urself. But then it is nt a gd way to keep quiet too. Aww.. Life is full of ups and downs


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Copyright © 14 June 2011, Thursday 12:04AM
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you dont understand

Title: you dont understand


Im still on mc. Didnt slept well again.. Today whole day no mood for anything. No one to cheerz me up either.. Alone thinking thru.. Want to rest also cant. Went for appt in the morning. Didnt know im seeing a different specialist this time round. Im seeing 3 different specialist for 3 different prob.. Gonna see another one in a mth time if i dont shw improvement. That's what e doctor said..


Dont wanna comment much about yesterday's appt.. Anyway i felt very disappointed, scare and lost. Somehow something else is more important then what i excepted.


Sigh! Someone is telling lies ah? Seem to be coughing badly.. Nvm la.. As long as u r taking care and doing gd for yourself im happy for u. Sigh! I need u the most but u r nt around. :( I miss u n love you so badly..


There are lots of thing i wanna said but... :( sigh!


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Copyright © 09 June 2011, Thursday 03:24AM
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i wanna

Title: i wanna


Sigh! Im soo sleepy but i just cant sleep.. I wanna sleep more but i cant.. The pain, the cough.. WTF.. Ppl can sleep more and yet they dont want to.. sleep late and wake up early for game? >_<" I wanna sleep more but i cant..


Later i had appt.. Have to go alone. Kinda scare.. Doctor push forward my appt. ><" Im thinking if later i happen to fall asleep den gg, i will miss this appt.. I have to go for this appt, cos the chest pain and the cough is nt getting any better.. For my own sake, i have to go..


Today in the afternoon did tried to sleep. Keep waking up.. WTF.. Sigh!


Im glad dear dear called up to arrange an appt for his toe and i hope dear dear follow-up closely. That's ur toe and you have the responsible to take gd care of it. Dont be lazy.. Do some research on it.. Dont just say and ended up doing nth. (cos that's seem to be ur habit already. for making me happy and nt to worry.. But in actual fact all are just saying..) Think far, think for our future.. think for our "kid" I dont want our kid to have such issue also.. So get our health prob fix.. Like what the doctor said diabetes can be cure if u watch ur diet and take good care of health..


As for my heart.. Im gonna ask the doctor again.. But of course i need to get this stupid cough solve.. At least my coffee intake is lesser already.. Even less rubbish snacks also.. Dear let's jia u and get our health fix..


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Able

Title: Able


Im given a total of 6 days mc.. Insisted by the doctor. As he want me to have a proper 3 meal and proper time to take my medicine and of course a proper slp. (haven been sleeping well lately.) But im nt gonna utilize all. I shall see how it goes.


Yesterday, had an injection on my buttock. This injection suppose to help stop my chest pain and discomfort. It does help only for few hours.. The pain is not going off fully.. Wat's went wrong? i really dont know.. Hmm, i think on Friday i ate super oily fired oyster and that's lead to breathless? I also dont know.. Cos after dinner out of sudden i cant breath well.. But to wat i know, i have chest pain already. So i think i cannot blame the food also..


Anyway, Doctor was saying some inflammation.. Gonna see lung specialist on Wednesday due to long lasting cough and maybe the chest pain could be due to this as well..


Yesterday, im in pain but im able to see, feel, hug, kiss dear dear. At that moment is soo shiok.. :) I miss and love him so much. Dear Dear I love you..


Dear pls pls faster arrange an appt for ur toe, it dont seem good.. It seem to get worse than before.. Pls dont play play.. Your toe is important.. Dont get it infected with ur bone and other toes.. Pls ask e doctor why is it not getting any better? If can arrange on Wednesday, i can go with u.


Im worry about u and u r worry about me. So pls, let's watch our health and take gd care... U need to control ur diet and so do i. I seem to have problem with oily food already.. Let's Jia u and take good care of ourself and each other!


No matter what, i love u from the bottom of my heart.. Muack


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Copyright © 07 June 2011, Tuesday 03:03AM
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you wont know hw i feel

Title: you wont know hw i feel


Im so upset. Seriously.. I feel like im standing at no where. Sigh! I think i will just have to keep everything to myself. Even anything goes wrong with me.


Im thinking one day if i just die and no one know wats goes wrong.


FK IT..


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Copyright © 06 June 2011, Monday 01:37AM
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awww..

Title: awww..


Dont knw where went wrong. Friday out of sudden i was feeling so breathless at work. Chest was freaking painful. So i asked if i can go home. (have to pay back..) Wanted to go home but im just feeling so shit that moment.. So went to A&E.. At least there was still ppl there to accompany me. xie xie.


Doctor actually wanted me to admit but i just dont want. He insisted and gave me 3 days mc.. Bt i dont want. He told me to come back if i dont get better. I went to work yesterday. It dont seem gd so i took half day..


Today woke up feeling giddy but at least i dont feel breathless. But my chest is still freaking pain and having chest tightness. I dont have any appetite to eat anything the whole day. FK..


Feeling kinda sad also. Sigh! Somehow when i need ppl most no one is there.. And that's the reason why i always keep it to myself and do whatever thing myself. I dare not go to the hospital today.. I dont want to get admitted.. I shall endure and see how tomorrow..


Dont want to bother dear dear also.. He is sick and tired.. Let him stay at home, game and rest.. I dont want to disturb him. He need the rest more. But he is not resting.. sigh! Sleep late wake up early.. Dont know la..


Saying is easier than doing.


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Copyright © 05 June 2011, Sunday 11:35PM
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Emo

Title: Emo


Im so emo suddenly. :( To be honest i dont really know the reason.. Maybe it could be cos dear dear was coughing very badly just now and my left side of the chest is painful. My cough is still nt recovering. In game not playing well also.. Hmm.. Fk it..


Yesterday went to see Elmo.. Dear dear's dog. Poor dog, is not well. I felt so sad.. Well, i cry to be honest. But im glad that when i feed him he eat. Today he started walking already. :) Elmo, wishing you speedy recover :) His birthday is coming as

well..


Went to the hospital to see dear dear's best buddy also. Im glad that he is recovering.. Wishing him a speedy recover as well.. JIA U.. :)


Lately, im soo stress and emo. Lots of thing happened. I almost cant take it. Mind set was so negative. But everything goes well yesterday.. Thank you dear dear..


Im thinking what to do to resolve all this stress and unnecessary thinking I had in mind.. Hmm..


Ok, i wanna go n try to sleep. Haven been sleeping well. Esp yesterday, every hour i woke up. Dont know for what. I think cos of the stupid chest pain and was abit of breathless. But no worries, nth got to do with my heart.. Im fine.. :) Im strong.. nitez all..


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Copyright © 03 June 2011, Friday 04:40AM
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speechless, hopeless, useless, helpless

Title: speechless, hopeless, useless, helpless


What a nice title i had.. :) Anyway, i dont know how to start.. Im soo lost.. Been asking myself alot of questions but i really cant ans it myself. ><" Sigh! Forget it.. i think im stress-ing up myself too much..


Health, dont wanna mentioned much, as usual cough.. Work i also dont want to talk much.. Just do whatever i can. Yesterday was worry about some issue but ended up i think im just thinking too much..


Sigh! Im just not in the mood for anything.. Sleep i just cant get to sleep. Yes im freaking fucking tired.. But i just cant get to sleep.. I dont know what to do sia..


Hmm, i shall go and watch movie till i fall asleep.. haha!


Miss dear so much.. Wanna call him but im scare. :(


Ok la.. EMO dont wanna blog already.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 31 May 2011, Tuesday 05:35AM
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no one will understand hw i feel

Title: no one will understand hw i feel


Irritating cough and flu is not going off.. The doctor did said i take very long to recover if i have cough and flu due to bronchitis. The specialist doctor also said that it could be due to when i was about to recover i got another virus attack and that leads to the long lasting cough. That might be the reason.. Everyone around me are coughing.. -.-" No worries, i will pump myself with lots n lots of water.


Im kinda hungry now. Only bread and cup noodle at home.. Which one should i eat? Sigh but i dont have the appetite to eat.. damn... Later i eat bread with ham n coffee maybe i will have appetite.. Excuses to drink coffee.. haha.


Tomorrow working already.. FK.. I sent e-mail ask ppl for help but no one reply and help. dammit.. Im gonna get screw by customer tomorrow.. I hope customer can understand.. Ppl keep saying work as a team, share the load but damn.. all bullshit. They esc to me i help all the way till they are back but who help me? Help only for just one day.. Sigh! U see la, how can i not check my e-mail when im on leave or mc? How can i rest well? Hw can i not worry? Then when customer call in and dispute, who's fault? the case owner fault. FK...


This is the reason why i dont like to ask ppl for help. 1st they get piss off which honestly i do but then i help all the way and not half way. (they get pissed off. This have been happening since day one..) 2nd they talk behind ur back (backstabber and it is still happening..). 3rd in return they will keep asking you for help for cases be it gd or bad. They take you for granted. While im not referring to everyone but "SOME".


I dont understand how ppl work. Wat are they thinking? Now i know why some ppl can go nut at work. Cos around them are all the selfish Singaporean. HUMAN ARE SELFISH. INCLUDING MYSELF.. THEY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES ONLY. WHOEVER DO THEM GOOD THEY TAKE GOOD CARE AND WATCH THEM AND WHEN THEY ARE USELESS THEY WILL TELL THE PERSON TO FK OFF..


Im so disappointed. Sigh! NVM.. For the freaking money.. We/I have no choice.. dear dear, u dont have to worry about what i mentioned here.. Just take care of ur HEALTH ESP.. Slp more, rest more and sleep early (u have been telling me all these but u r nt doing it.) U have been coughing these few days as well and pls watch ur diet.. Remember, mama, ur close buddy and maybe me need u.. (i only need ur advise) Stay healthy and be strong. We can do it.. :)


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Copyright © 28 May 2011, Saturday 07:59PM
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emo, freaking cough

Title: emo, freaking cough


I cant sleep well. Keeping waking up cos of block nose and cough. The phlegm is soo irritating.. Sigh! I dont know wat to do to lower my body temperature.. Turn on the air-con i cough more.. >_<"


Im kinda emo... >_<" FK it


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Copyright © 26 May 2011, Thursday 10:19PM
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feeling weak..

Title: feeling weak..


Just had another round of shower but my temperature is not going down. Yesterday i slept with air-con and turn on my fan to the biggest (but my mum turn e fan off), im feeling cold and my temperature is still not going down.. WTF.. I even try drinking ice water but its not helping it make my cough got worse and i was breathless.. Anyone knows anyway to bring down the body temperature?


Im down with running and block nose, cough, sore throat and high fever. Since Saturday to be honest. I tot sunday i will be fine but i almost fainted middle of the night. I woke up to go to the toilet after that i ended up sitting outside the toilet. All thanks to my mum for helping me all the way to the bed.


FK.. I was so happy my long long cough (for about 5mths+)seem much improvement and here come this virus attack.. WTF.. Helpless... After soo long of controlling my intake of cold drinks and coffee and all sort of rubbish all gone to waste.. cry...


I might need to go back to the doctor again tomorrow if my fever is not going away. My back hurts alot and feeling a bit breathless. I need to recover fast. Cos i need to get back to work.. On hands got a few cases needed to settle and we are shortage of manpower. I cannot be so selfish...


Anyway, i realize something which is seriously disappoint me alot. Sigh! This is just life. Humans are just humans..


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Copyright © 25 May 2011, Wednesday 01:54AM
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tired

Title: tired


Freaking tired.. Not feeling well also.. Vomited once just now. Yesterday cant sleep well.. >_<" Been coughing badly again.. I should say the cough is not going away. Completed my antibiotics long ago. But once i stop everything revert back to square one.. im also down with flu and breathless.. Need to use e inhaler before bed.. FK..


Anyway, im going to bed liao.. Will try to sleep.. I think later going out.. haha! I forget what i wanna blog already. nvm. I go and sleep.. Good nite to all. Bye!


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Copyright © 15 May 2011, Sunday 06:15AM
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shag, weak...

Title: shag, weak...


Im soo freaking shag... why? I just dont know why.. -.-" Yawn... I need more energy... Nth much to blog.. aww.. Bye!


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Copyright © 10 May 2011, Tuesday 11:22PM
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Freaking boring..

Title: Freaking boring..


Damn bored.. Sigh! Seriously i dont know what to do.. Game also nth to do.. Like login see see only.. It's always the same.. Well im nt hardcore like the rest and I think im sux at it.. :(


Anyway, going to er jie's grandmother wake later.. I think is at Clementi if im nt wrong.. Waiting for mei mei.. I dont mind staying there still late den go to work.. Just keep er jie accompany..


OH SHIT... On the 9 which is tomorrow i got doctor appt... FK.. I just remember.. But im working.. Siao.. How sia? Like that waste half day leave sia.. Take time off must payback.. Wow liao aaa.. Cannot take mc.. cos is just soo stupid.. Sigh!


Sigh!! BORING LA............... FK!!!!!!!!!


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Copyright © 08 May 2011, Sunday 10:52PM
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Entertainer

Title: Entertainer


Im just the entertainer.. Keeping quiet doesnt mean that u ppl can bully us..


Working so hard doesnt mean that u can get everything. Slacking more is still e best choice..


In short, im just the entertainer for every single thing..


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Copyright © 07 May 2011, Saturday 04:29AM
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Responsibility

Title: Responsibility


Yesterday im freaking damn moody and pissed off.. But.. Sigh! NVM... Anyway, what is customer service? What is technical support? Customer service + technical support = ?


Im asking this question for a reason. Im indicating my title as responsibility for a reason. Ppl are making me pissed off.. FK UP is the word..


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Copyright © 05 May 2011, Thursday 05:52AM
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oh well..

Title: oh well..


Lots of tots..... But it is just soo hard for me to blog it all out.. Sigh! Nvm... Dont blog liao la..


Not going to blog about health, life, work and more.. So... Bye!


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Copyright © 30 April 2011, Saturday 05:40AM
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why i always get ignore?

Title: why i always get ignore?


Felt so sad.. Am i that fuck up? Not once not twice but countless time.. sigh! Can I ignore as well? Sigh! FK!


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Copyright © 24 April 2011, Sunday 09:40PM
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whatever

Title: whatever


Whatever! Anything! Oh well.. cant be bother.. Like what i always said, say so much wrong so much -.-" As long as everyone's happy im ok..


Dont wanna blog more just in case i said something that is not very nice.. :)


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Copyright © 24 April 2011, Sunday 05:29AM
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NO, Im talking to Casper

Title: NO, Im talking to Casper


Learn something gd yesterday.. This makes me luff for a few mins and well i use it today.. No more talking to the wall when you talk to someone and he/she dont reply. Now is No, Im talking to Casper.. I just did talking to Casper.. oh well..


I felt so disappointed. Aww.. Anyway im on HL till Sunday. Monday going back to work already. And im gonna just work and work.. I think i gonna ignore every single shit.. It makes me freaking confuse..


Not going to talk about my health.. Dont want to mention anything already.. Sigh!! That's all for today.. Bye!


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Copyright © 22 April 2011, Friday 07:51PM
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:(

Title: :(


Fever fever, cough cough go away... Dont come again anymore.. fever is nt going away, went back to nuh. Was given additional antibiotics and cough mixture. Doctor also gave me different type of inhaler for my asthma. A stronger one. Aww.. Sigh!


Worse till the doctor gave me 3 days of MC. I dont want. I cant take MC. I see how. If my fever still dont go down, I LL have to stay at home.


I haven been sleeping well lately. Cos of this chest pain and cough. :( cry cry.. I want to faster recover and back to work. Cos staying at home nth to do. :( No mood to game also. When you are sick everything is just soo sucky..


sigh! I wanna to stop here already. Im freaking tired.. bye all.


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Copyright @ 21 April 2011, Thursday 01:10AM
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go away

Title: go away


Yesterday or i should say, Monday night discharged from NUH. Was admitted due to fever, chest pain, breathless and cough. Then stomach was also uncomfortable. Was on drips due to dehydration and the nurse gave me injection thru by leg, that's damn freaking painful.. Right now, Im still hving problem walking properly.


Was diagnosed i have gastric and URTI (upper respiratory tract infection). As for the chest pain was told it is cos of my heart.. and for cough, still not sure why.. Have to wait till next week to see the lung specialist. Sigh!


What i want is my cough and fever to go away.. Have been coughing and fever is not going away. I want to sleep but i cant really sleep well due to cough.. Sigh! Head is freaking pain as well.. :(


Im on 4 days of mc and 4 days of HL. Mc i only use 1 day so still ok. I will be back to work coming friday. I have to go back to work.. i have cases needed me to follow-up with customer.. I know my colleague is helping me out but i dont like. This is my shit, i dont like ppl to kena from customer. And i have been following-up with customer so i know they problem most. So is best i follow-up with customer myself..


Awww.. Im feeling soo weak now.. dammit.. Wanna play game with the rest but i stop.. I think i go lay on my bed and watch tv.. Try to sleep.. Bye all..


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Copyright @ 20 April 2011, Wednesday 02:50AM
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cant sleep

Title: cant sleep


Cannot sleep.. Waiting for dear dear to reach home den i sleep. Sigh! Always said me but u urself also..


Waiting... Waiting.. Dear ah, u r nt well and yet u dont want to take care.. ><" Speechless.. Sigh!


Now u know why i stubborn right.. I follow u.. Suffer together loh.. ok ba i go watch tv till dear dear reach home.. bye!


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Ouch

Title: Ouch


Sigh! Having chest pain and stomach discomfort. Due to chest pain and breathless i went to NUH on thursday and yesterday. Doctor told me to come back when the pain got worse.. Thanks that fever went down when i was there.. If not the doctor want me to admit. phew.. Doctor asked if i have fever, i said no straight away. But i did nt said it's on and off.. Dont want to admit..

On thursday, the doctor wanted to give me mc but i rejected. No point la.. But who knows Friday doctor nv even give me a chance to reject him.. :( I told the doctor was coughing for close to 2 to 3 mths already (which i really dont know why im still coughing), hving chest pain and breathless. And of course my stomach discomfort.. And again, i was told i have urinary tract infection. sigh! Im asked to see 3 specialist doctor. For my lung, heart and stomach. ><"


Right now, having fever, still coughing and chest is still pain.. sigh! Monitoring myself.. Hope fever go away.. Anyway, im meeting er jie they all later.. Scold me if u guys want.. Nt well still wanna go out.. Oh well, im very moody and i just want to go out.. Since i cant sleep well.. So go out..


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Copyright © 16 April 2011, Saturday 12:03AM
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Silent

Title: Silent


Was damn sleepy but cant sleep.. Nvm.. I just notice that there are lots of thing better to keep it to yourself. You may not know what other will do behind your back. Seriously.. I think i just notice this today. It happened right on my face twice in a day.. Hmm...


Oh well, i think it's a bit too late.. But then from today onwards, i guess i will just smile and keep quiet. Just smile will do.. This is still the best.. :)


Lately, ppl are making me pissed off.. Aww.. My blood is boiling.. Awwww.. But then, i just have to stay with it.. Everybody have their own problems.. No one is prefect.. So yeah, leave with it.. Stay happy :)


Nth much i can say liao..Wanna go and sleep already.. Bye!


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Copyright © 13 April 2011, Wednesday 04:47AM
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waiting...

Title: waiting...


It's 4am+ already. Im still waiting for my lovely dear dear to reach home. But then, i suspect he might have reach home and sleeping at this moment, cos i sms him bo reply. Hmm... Waiting inside the game till i bored liao.. I wanna sleep soon. Cos tomorrow working already..


Yesterday dear dear came over to my hus... Surprise, touch and happy of course.. :) Thank you dear dear :D 4th time dear dear came over to my hus.. 1st time was during year 2009 CNY :D, 2nd time was during year 2010 CNY, the 3rd one was when i was sick for quite long dear dear came with sunflower and porridge and the 4th was yesterday.. :D Hug hug.. We haven been seeing each other for like erm... 1 to 2 weeks already.. Nw that we are working in different office.. :( Seldom see and talk to each other.. Thank You dear dear... I LOVE YOU :)


Die la.. Im starting to hate ppl already.. HOW? Well, ppl is way too much already.. Cannot cannot.. I must be the friendly one :) I must change my mind set.. :) I can do it..


Thinking for taking leave on Friday... Thursday meet my cousin and we will be going to the bank as she is applying for bank loan and need a guarantor.. I will be her guarantor :D Then i believe we will go walk walk.. :D Then Friday going to polyclinic to ask the doctor for letter to refer me to NUH and at the same time see doctor.. I promise i will see a doctor and i will.. Dear dear, no worries.. :D


hmm.. ok.. wanna stop here.. Wanna login to game awhile den sleep.. Nitez...


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Copyright © 11 April 2011, Monday 04:09AM
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What

Title: What


Off day always past so fast.. :( Im still soo shag.. Still not enf sleep.. Wanted to wake up early to see a doctor for my chest pain n constipation but i just cant wake up.. Forget it.. Next week then i see.


Everyday had supper.. But there are still ppl telling me i slim down alot.. huh! Seriously, i eat more than last time :D muhahaha!! Only during off day i dont eat but other than that i eat. But then, my poor tummy dont allow me to eat alot.. So i only have 2 meals per day... :(


I have lost trust with quite a number of ppl already. Sigh! Nvm.. Dont want to comment much..


Aiyo, dear dear start working liao. He is busy clearing emails.. Haha! Poor dear dear... Nvm, one more day and you are off again :)


Ok wanna stop here.. Lazy to blog... Bye!


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Copyright © 08 April 2011, Friday 11:11PM
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Shag

Title: Shag


Im damn shag... Just came back not long from supper. Been working since Sunday.. One more day to go and i can finally rest for a day.. Then work again.. Anyway planned something on wednesday but its all gone.. Damn..


Sigh! Work is just oh well not again.. Another game lag in my Q.. Job well done.. nvm la.. Im use to it already.. hahaha!!


Just dont know why im soo shag till i just dont have the mood for game.. Aww.. Friday maybe going to polyclinic to see a doctor.. Shall see my mood.. Cos im super freaking lazy.. Cos i dont want to spend my off day out.. I wanna rest.. haha!


Will stop here ba..


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Copyright © 07 April 2011, Thursday 03:29AM
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Happy 1 year 5 months Anniversary

Title: Happy 1 year 5 months Anniversary


1st of all, I wanna wish dear dear, Happy 1 year 5 months Anniversary. Thank you for all your love, care and concern. Thank you for everything. :) I love you! Muack :)


Im so shag out. I dont like to work 2.30pm shift. Cos im always very tired and i cant play game long when i reach home.. :( Like now, it's only 3.13am and i wanna fall asleep already. After blogging i will sleep liao.. Sad.. :( I need to wake up early also.. :(


To be honest, this few days my chest seem to be giving me lots of problem. I dont know izzit because i have a very uncomfortable stomach and the acid cos the chest pain or what ppl said heart-burn (but i dont feel the burning)... Or izzit because just the common chest pain i always had.. I can talk to customer half way and my chest was just so painful.. :( On and off.. Awww..


Plan Wednesday going to polyclinic.. I want this problem to solve at one go and at the same time want some ppl to try working without us around.. I want ppl to taste how tough it is so that ppl will not play MC and nth go wrong with "them". Most of us have suffer before and is time for "them" to taste it. Well, I really dont want to do this, but this ppl really taking us for granted. Way too much already. I wanted to wait till my off day but the pain is also unbearable. But then honestly, i really want to get my chest pain resolve. It's have been going on and off pain since Sunday..


Ok wanna go and sleep already.. Tired liao.. Good night!


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Copyright © 05 April 2011, Tuesday 03:24AM
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lots of things to say

Title: lots of things to say


Had supper again.. oh my, i need to stop this already.. I cant eat too much.. My digestive system is working sooo slowly.. Aww..


Anyway, i hv lots of thing to say.. But no one to talk too.. or i should i dare not say.. Fk it.. Just shut my mouth up la..


Sigh! Thinking sunday have to work and at night only 2 person.. FK! Im gonna be flooded again.. :( Of course i hope no.. We shall see.. Hope for the best..


Alot of hates but i just have to keep it to myself and act if nth have happen.. Sigh! Like what i have said, in life there are ups and downs.. Oh well..


FK it.. My chest is painful.. Sigh!


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Copyright © 02 April 2011, Saturday 05:33AM
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old problem

Title: old problem


Work seem ok today. Ppl was asking me how many cases i needed to follow-up, i pointed at my follow-up form i wrote down. Every hour i have one you say le? Then finally nv ask me to follow-up on anything.


Oh well, they postpone again.. >_<" Nv ending postpone.. :) hahhaa! There are gd and bad la.. But i dont care..


Sigh! I dont know what happen, just now suddenly chest pain(still slight pain now), breathless and cough alot. But heng i have my inhaler with me.. This chest pain and cough is just pain in the ass... Just dont know when it will go away completely.. :( Always when i cough lesser i tot its gonna go away, but for no reason i started coughing badly again.. FK! Izzit the food i took, the air-con or what fk? Sigh!! ANGRY....


Im soo soo shag.. Im gonna try to sleep.. Gd nite all..


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Copyright © 01 April 2011, Friday 06:31AM
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re-call the happiness :)

Title: re-call the happiness :)


Im re-calling the 1st time i met dear dear.. haha! Im still wondering how we get together sia.. LOL!! Dear dear u can re-call?


Hmm, basically we have the same interest, music, games and of course both of us are stubborn.. hahaha! I still can remember you msn me and we flooded each other with lots of songs :D .. Telling me about the gal u like.. hahaha! Then Ah Lame and me trying to help u.. haha! But dont know why we ended up together.


Seriously, i still dont know why you fall in love with me? Why me ah? haha!! We haven been going to youtube search for songs. I still remember, everytime after work, you will said, u date me in msn.. :) (to search for songs).. hahaha!!


Our 1st trip together was sentosa and we did had a great time.. :) After that next was Genting.. The ride there was horrible but, we still enjoyed ourself.. :) After which to phuket.. Sad to say not enf :( We only enjoyed 1 day nia.. :( But overall we did enjoyed.. hehehe!!


Im looking forward for more oversea trip with you dear dear.. We can eat, talk, slack and ignore everything.. :) hehe!


But one thing for sure is, we gonna speak up if we are not happy with each other.. I promise i will do so and i promise i will not get angry when you said it out.. But i want u to promise not to get angry also.. Can? And promise to take gd care of your health can? so that we can travel more and eat gd food.. ok dear dear? Next work hard to have a better life ahead.. :)


And of course i will always love and miss you no matter what my dear.. Im missing packing lunch for you then going to work together and going home frm work with u, hving dinner and talking to you at work. :( Im missing slacking and accompany you to smoke. Sometime at night i walked over to ur seat and you are not there.. :( wanna talk to you but u are not there.. :( I dont know when everything will revert to square one.. lol!!


Dear dear, when is our next long hoilday? hehehe!! Anyway, I just wanna let you knw that no matter what im by urself to support you. Let's fight everything together.. :) I wanna tell you, no matter what I will always LOVE YOU! :) Muack!!


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Copyright © 31 March 2011, Thursday 01:27AM
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shag

Title: shag


Im soo shag.. sigh! Cough and sore throat are all with me once again.. damn! Or I should it nv go away. Sigh! Whatever la..


I have lots of things wanna blog but then i cant do so. Sigh! FK it! Anyway, yesterday i was asked "how am I?" I said this back, if you were to ask me now, i will said no gd.. (at that point of time im in office) Then i said, if you were to ask me outside of the office, i will said Im very gd and fine. haha! Everyone luff.. This true ma.. Looking at hw ppl slack and we work so much it so fk up..


Nvm la, Im use to it already. Be it home, r/s, friends, health and work there are so many ups and downs. So confuse.. I can tell you one day, i will just MIA from everything.. Im have been fighting very hard but there are always knock back somewhere or somehow.. :(


Ok ba.. I wanna stop here already.. bye!


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Copyright © 30 March 2011, Wednesday 03:32PM
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what should i said

Title: what should i said


Ppl should show gd example before asking other to do the same thing. Sigh! I get very upset and angry but then i cant said anything.. I should shut my mouth up ba.. The more i see and say, the more upset i get.. Always put urself in another person shoe and you will hv a taste of the terrible feeling.. Maybe one day i should try say without doing.. Im trying my best to ignore.. Show less care and concern.. I believe im over doing it.. This lead to hates.. (hey, im talking about works and everything. Be it dear dear, friends, sister or work.. It's the same)


Sigh! Whatever la.. enf is enf.. Anyway, today went for appt.. The doctor lack of confidence man.. Failure.. I just dont know who to believe now.. And seriously SGH sux.. Last Monday i went to A&E due to cough non-stop for 3months++ close to 4months already.. Doctor did x-ray and said nth went wrong. Today the heart centre doctor mentioned x-ray shown that my left lung have infection.. I was like HUH? The doctor nv told me but he said nth wrong.. Then heart centre doctor ignore it.. This whole heart appt is seem to be wasting lots of my money.. FK U!!


I dont know la.. Well, im doing job hunting.. :D Im still thinking to work or to study? Aww.. Study need money.. I dont have.. Study need lots and lots of time, i dont think i can afford to waste so much time.. Awww..


I find that human are really damn freaking selfish.. And they like to say A but they do B.. Well! I admit sometime im this way.. Why? Why do we behave this way? Hmm.. No one knows except we.. haha!


Ok, i wanna go n night dreaming already.. I dont knw if i can fall asleep.. My nite coughing came back again.. Sigh! I think maybe it is due to not enf sleep.. I dont knw.. Aww.. bye all!!


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Copyright © 29 March 2011, Tuesday 04:37AM
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Ouch..

Title: Ouch..


Tomorrow working... Or i should say later working.. Wondering should i go back for OT again.. Yes, honestly im freaking sleepy.. But that's e only way i can do now..


I hurt my left hand just now.. Ouch... I "accidentally" knocked my hand onto the wall.. Well done! Freaking painful.. >_<"


Well, Friday went for heart scan. Freaking painful scan.. :( I will nv want to go thru this scan again.. I hate it.. Doctor makes me wanna puke a few times.. :( And it made my throat and chest painful.. Throat is e worse.. The whole progress is soo painful..


Monday review result. This will determine everything already. To go or not to go.. Im in between moderate and severe.. There are 3 stages and im between stage 2 and 3.. consider safe? Maybe i no need operation but then will get on and off chest pain.. Hope the doctor say i NO NEED operation :)


Sigh! My mind is soo lost again.. Thinking... Thinking.. Anyway i started eating veg already.. For the sake of dear dear.. How yucky the veg is, i will still eat.. Which i did.. I will carry-on.. This will give dear dear the determination to take gd care of his own health and of course i want to suffer together with him.. I really hope dear dear will carry-on and not just show it to me while im around only.. Im glad u r controlling ur cigarette intake and i really hope u will carry-on.. Seriously, i hope u dont do it just because im around.. I show improvement in coffee intake already.. I will show improvement to take more veg.. Dear dear, let's work together for a gd health.. But then u ask me to control ur diet.. I did but u tend to get angry.. I think u control it urself ba.. Same goes for ur cigarette intake.. Cos u know ur body well.. Maybe i dont understand ur body.. I dont want to get disappointed each time i fail and i dont want u to get angry..


I really hope u will take gd care of urself when im nt around.. Take care of ur wound and eat ur medicine regularly ba.. I beg and please you.. Thank You as well.. Let's Jia u ba. I really love you alot.. That's why im showing so much care and concern. But if u dont like pls tell me.. I will control myself.. :)


Ok.. Time to stop here.. Bye!


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Copyright © 27 March 2011, Sunday 03:27AM
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