What you believe is what you will achieve: June 2012

30 June 2012

Not again...

Title: Not again...

Yesterday was a happy day... Today was a fuck up day.. My mum is here to spoil my mood once again.. Sigh!!

I really hate it.. I hate it.. I hate it... My blood is boiling hot now.. What a shit day..

Sigh!! Ppl, stop asking how am i or am i ok.. If you are in my shoe you will blow up.. Dont ask stupid question! You will not be ok if have the same problem as me. Just leave me ALONE.. FK!!

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28 June 2012

For the past few days work place was chaotic. I was just so mad at it.. I just dont understand why the company is doing this to us. What's more is that the people in the office make thing worse. I just keep quiet and think.. My conclusion was i have lost trust with the company already.. 1 team leader and one boss saying the different thing to us. It's money matter... Sigh!

Anyway, i have been very busy at work :( Been pushing myself to wake up early to get to work to finish up my stuff. (but i only manage to go to work early for once this week, which was yesterday.. The rest of the day i only start work in the afternoon.. haha..) I need to finish my 60 calls per day and stuff that my team leader told me to do. And sometime he just piss me off.. Small matter he make it like a big matter.. -.-"

Why are ppl around me lying? Even ppl im close with. Like i said, if you lie dont let me found out if not im gonna be real mad. My six sense for this are always right. If you want to lie, pls do so in a correct way. It simply make me think that the trust and honest is not there.. If you want to lie then so be it i will do the same thing back to whoever do that to me. It hurt my/ppl feeling.. I have limit with that.. If it goes beyond it, then im really sorry.. I wont be honest anymore.. If you are honest dont worry i wont do such thing to u.. White lie is still ok. As white lie dont hurt ppl feeling.

Sigh! Whatever it is, im just gonna keep my mouth shut.. Cos this will really prevent problem from happening.. :) Hmm, 2 more days and im getting one year older.. -.-" NO celebration pls. I dont need all this.. Only wishes that i hope it will come true.. I shall keep it to myself.. :) Hmm, someone seem to be running away from something.. I dont know why.. But whatever la.. Eventually, im also running away from something. So, ya..

Ok, time to sleep.. later gonna have lunch with boss.. To settle all the chaotic stuff happening in the office for the past few days and even months.. Bye!

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19 June 2012

Life is short

Title: Life is short

Yesterday met my bff and we really had lots of fun... I think everytime i meet them i always laughing out loud.. They cheer me up.. After so much of unhappy, emotional and stress i have, yesterday was the day that it make me not to think of anything but to just enjoy... I love you gals.. Thank you soo much.. awaiting for more to come.. Things that i dare not try i wanna try it... I feel so comfortable with you gals around.. Thanks once again..

Life is really short.. We really cant predict what will happen.. Sigh! Dear Uncle Ramesh you left us too soon.. We only get to met each other for like 3 times :(, We haven get to sit down and have drinks.. You mentioned you wanna chill out with us.. Im so sorry for not able to do this quick.. :( I really appreciate all your adv you have given me.. Thank you so much.. Thank you for taking good care and love my cousin so much.. You are an awesome DAD as well..

You passed away at the place you love the most.. You wore your favourite jersey number 25. Rest in peace my best uncle.. We will miss you. Thank you for teaching me something.. I have woke up and found out that life is really short and unpredictable. I guess that the one thing i will always remind myself starting from today.. Im gonna do whatever shit that i have never try before and really make full use of it.. So that out of nowhere when i die i have no regret. Maybe the only regret i have is... I shall keep it to myself.. Once again Uncle Ramseh rest in peace and thank you so much for everything you have done for us.

Im just gonna enjoy my leave today by doing things i like.. Not gonna fucking bother about whatever shit.. I know when i get back to work tomorrow it's gonna be another sigh day.. Lots of thing awaiting for me to do i guess.. Since yesterday boss already started to play game with me.. Fine.. Do whatever you want with me.. Im more than happy to do it.. Im just gonna take it as i get this position and learn...

Ok shall stop here and start my day with running man 1st.. bye!!

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14 June 2012

Things gonna be clear out

Title: Things gonna be clear out

I just dont get it.. Is either you say it out or fk it.. Dont go round and round and round.. I have enf of guessing and thinking.. sigh!!

I have work stress and so many things to stress out now... Adding more work load soon.. :( I dont know to accept the offer or not.. It seem to be a good new for me but somehow im not happy at all. :( Sigh!

Today boss break out a bad new and it is seriously making us so mad. Since April till now all our hard work will not be pay. We was told that HR dont want to pay our incentive of total $900 (april till June). They said our team not suppose to get any incentive.. We argue back saying it was promise since day one. Boss asked me and i said this is not acceptable.. We was told and promise we will get incentive as long as we hit our target and now we are told we wont get unless we join another team. I told him that he cant force us to go over to another team if we dont want. How can a company use such thing to force us? We find it as force because he said if we were to stay on the current team we wont get any incentive including the past few months we worked for unless we go over to another team and we will get our past few months incentive.

I even said that, this is a big well organize company and yet they are treating this to their staffs. This is totally unacceptable. We work hard for it and we should get pay for what we should get. Boss said they will fight for us.. We shall see..

Then my boss keep asking me about my decision.. I have mentioned i dont want to go over to another team.. I just want to stay in the current team.. But today he have been like asking me more than 3 times already.. I said i will get back to him tomorrow.. Well, my answer to him is simple.. Resolve the current issue before i will give u an answer. Just want to be fair.. Cos, i have slowly lost trust in the company. From A disband to B. Now from B they gonna disband us to C.. Later from C to where? Im so stress out now.. Adding more stress to something that i hope its not gonna happen.. But somehow my six sense is telling me that be prepare.. Something gonna happen.. I may just break out crying out loud or even committed something serious.

Sigh!! I hope my six sense fail.. All this while im just like a fool.. Sigh!!

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13 June 2012

just woke up

Title: just woke up

Just woke up from nap.. Im soo tired.. Just dont understand why am i so tired.. Even if i sleep early im also tired.. -.-"

Today took leave. Can say leave/mc.. Planned to take leave today just to have a good rest at home.. As im really really exhausted at work already.. Is time for me to have a off day.. But somehow, cos my throat is killing me so badly with slight fever and i want to check out why sometime out of nowhere im feeling giddy. So i went to see a doctor.

I dont know why lately when i walk, sit or while working suddenly i feel so giddy.. It just so sudden.. Last time usually i have it only when i sit or lay on the bed then i stand up too fast i will have such problem.. But now, even when im sitting down happily working i have that giddiness problem..

The doctor basically just lousy. He checked my blood pressure 1st time, he dont seem to know anything.. After that he try again and said my blood pressure is at the low stage so he said when i sit down dont stand up too fast.. Oh my, he dont understand what is when im sitting down i have such problem as well. Anyway, i guess i need to have a body check-up soon. The doctor basically gave me medicine for cough, throat infection and fever. He wanted to give me vitamin but i rejected cos i told him i will puke when i eat that.

i hope my sore throat will just go away tomorrow.. Cos i need to start calling and sell something to customer.. I need to talk alot tomorrow..

Ok, gonna stop here and play game for awhile..

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06 June 2012

It happened

Title: It happened

Just reach home from work... Spend time with the gals in office playing our last Uno game after finishing our work(will tell u why later). Anyway, today i only started my work at 4pm.. Well done... Morning i was busy submitting my order then had lunch.. Then we played game for awhile and who knows boss called me to talk to me.. It was a long talk.. He actually asked about my goal for the next few months / years in this department... I told him honestly, i dont like to handle customer anymore.. I really have enough.. I dont want anything that needs to talk to customer.. He mentioned that of course he dont want me to go to another department but of course if I really have no interest in this company he will let me go..

I told him straight, im looking more in IT.. Anything got to do with computer.. hahaha.. I said but if really i have to stay in this department, at least give us sale and marketing training.. This will really help.. I told him what we are doing now are BORING... We are doing the same thing over and over again.. He said he understand.. He even said if big boss or himself want me to go over to another department which are doing similar to what we are doing now is it ok? I told him NO.. I told him if they insist i will show you my resignation letter straight away.. We laugh.. Seriously, i really have enough of talking to customer.. I have been doing that for the past erm... 3 to 4 years... Im tired of doing this...

Then we talked about staff and many more... Asked me to give feedback.. I told him monkey see monkey do.. He knows everything but just keep quiet.. However, in between there was some big issue... We found out that the 2 temp staffs that i have been talking in this blog got around 3k of their salary.. Worse is, they dont turn up at work most of the time... They are getting more than what im getting.. So boss actually went to check thru their time sheet for april and may and found out that the timing and days indicated are all wrong.. GG, they are terminated immediately. They are asked to leave.. That's the reason why i said, we (as in the team) spend some times in office just now to play our last Uno game with the 2 gals who are terminated.. Now from 8 person to 6 person in the team already.. It's sad but they are already too much.. once maybe the boss close one eye, but they are doing it again. And they always dont turn up for work.. Feel sad but i cant do anything.. Just wish them all the best and hope they learn their lesson. Dont make the same mistake again.

ok, guess is time to stop here.. Im soo tired... -.-"

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05 June 2012

why me again?

Title: why me again?

Today training was ok.. We were surprise by the mac breakfast provided.. Didnt know breakfast was given :) Anyway, work was ok.. I didnt know that i manage to complete my calling fast.. I hope i can do the same tomorrow..

Sigh! I need to call a very angry and disturb customer tomorrow.. :( That customer i actually called to offer him some free stuff but he dispute that his service been having problem for years and yet no one can resolve it.. So i persuade him to allow me to get the special technical team to contact him. He actually rejected a few times but finally accept. He mentioned if we do not have solution to it dont call him or send any tech down. I was told by boss if customer have such problem (meaning lots of service calls and yet problem not resolve), i can email them.. So i did.. But who knows the case came back to me. They want me to contact customer and persuade him to allow tech to come down to check + resolve the problem. Cos they fail to do so.. Customer asked them to check on his history.. (If they failed then, why do i need to?) WHAT!!!!!!! My big boss even asked me to call customer.. Im gonna die.. Im gonna get it from customer once again.. :( Boss told me to tell customer to give the company one more chance to assist him.. This is a very tough job.. Please wish me luck.. I hope i can persuade customer..

After that received another bad new.. Im on standby for meeting with big big bosses on Wednesday.. If the assistance supervisor cant make it to the meeting i have to go.. Awww.. I dont want... I really dont want to go.. :(

Today boss actually called individual to sit with him to talk about career move.. So far im not called yet.. But i got a feeling that our team gonna disband again.. NOT AGAIN...... How many time they want to disband the team? -.-" Really hope the team will stay as it is..

Just now i was watching a malay movie called "Nongkrong" on miotv.. LOL!! It was funny.. There is English subtitle that's why i watch.. haha.. Next will be watching "house full 2" Indian movie.. :) Seem awesome and funny as well.. hehe! I have lots of drama, variety show and movies to watch :) Whoohoo...

I wanna play game, but somehow when i login kill a few mobs im soo sleepy.. Keep falling asleep.. Therefore, i decided to stop.. (this suppose to be the way, not when u are sleepy u carry on playing) Gonna watch running man... It seem like watching running man keep me awake.. lol... YES, i finally can wake up a bit later tomorrow for work.. But i think i still need to go to work early to contact the dispute customer cos i dont want this to take up my time at work...

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03 June 2012

Dumb

Title: Dumb

Now i can watch running man on my full HD tv.. Can just relax on my bed and watch.. Anyway, i have lots of thing on my mind and wish to ask.. But im just so scare to ask.. Only thing is to wait and see if ppl find out a not.. By saying it out will not resolve the problem..

Hmmm, i recall something... On Friday, my boss asked me to audit a chinese call, while sitting at his desk and listening to the sale audit, i notice something..... I saw one of my colleague mc and it was just soo obvious that changes have been done on it.. The doctor gave 1 day mc but it was change to 2 days.. Even the date was change using correct tape. My boss which is called the supervisor is just soo DUMB... I can see it from far that something is wrong with the mc but he cant see that.. Gosh... This is serious, if HR gonna find out GG... I told my assistance supervisor to see and straight away he can see it.. Well, we will just keep quiet.. Seriously can see lots of funny thing happening in office.. Even the temp staffs change their time-sheet the supervisor also dont know.. This kids oh my...

Tomorrow have to wake up early for work again.. Some content training.. -.-" Fighting... Gonna stop here and watching running man.. Bye...

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02 June 2012

boring Saturday

Title: boring Saturday

Boring Saturday...Im home watching running man, movies and play game.. Boring... Anyway, I have already mentioned on my previous post.. If it is still the same then forget it.. If this carry-on i dont know what will happen.. Anyway, its been almost a month that i haven meet my bf.. Well.. Speechless.. Blame it on D3..

Gonna play game then watch running man.. Weekends seem to pass by so slowly.. -.-" Sigh!!

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I knew it

Title: I knew it

Today went to work early and was told i need to do audit calls.. Was told because there was lots of sales rejected by KL and the big bosses want to know what was the reason behind it. Therefore I need to audit the calls between in-house sale agent and the customer.. -.-" Extra work... I need to work from 9.30am to 12pm then after that have to do my own work.. Thanks god that i manage to complete everything on time.. I knew it was something related to in-house telesales.. This will be on-going for 2 weeks.. (I think) -.-"

hmm, today boss gave a few of us USS ticket (1 Express ticket and 1 day complimentary ticket). It worth $125.. The thing is, i dont play the rides as my heart cannot take it and it is just a ticket for one person.. Want to give this ticket away... Anyone want??

Finally, i can have a good rest tomorrow and sunday.. Monday gonna be another tough day.. Cos i need to report work early again :( Let's not think about next week 1st.. Shall enjoy my weekends... :) Ok, gonna play game... :)

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