Not again..

Title: Not again..


Sigh!! I hate it so much.. Gonna have training again.. :( 8.30pm to 6pm.. I hate this.. Either i dont sleep or i sleep for like 1 to 2hrs only.. My body clock is fix now.. i cant change it.. I dont want training.. Training training and training.. WT... :(


I have make up my mind already.. Which is to dont bother about anything.. Leave as it is.. Keep quiet.. The most deep dwn in my heart i feel the pain (heart broken)..


Sad... :( Feeling so so sad.. Sigh!! Wow liao.. Super bored.. Whole day i have been playing blackshot and watch fairy tails.. Im not with dear dear... Ha! Anyway, if im with him, i will do the same thing.. Cos he will watch his anime and sleep.. It makes no different.. Only different is my mum nag nia.. Nth much..


Dear dear, no matter what i still love you.. Seriously i love you so much that i cant live without you.. And that's e reason why i choose not to bother about what you do already.. Like what ppl always said, enjoy today as you do not know what will happen the next day.. Well, im just so useless.. I cant change you and i guess you change me (a little la.. Grown some fats and at least i cut dwn on my coffee intake alot already.. And im trying very hard to stop drinking it.. Cos i knw its bad for my heart condition.. N whatever u said i will do my very best to listen frm now on.. But of course must be reasonable..).. You asked me to help you to cut dwn on this and that but i cant make it.. I dont want to quarrel with you everyday... It makes me give up easily.. It makes me feel useless... It makes me feel guilty and baka..


Only thing i wanna said for sure is, I choose you and i will live forever with u.. I will die with u.. :D You are the one and only.. I love you frm the bottom of my heart.. Hehe!! Muack.. I miss you badly...


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What can i do forget?

Title: What can i do to forget?

My mind started to think hard again.. Thinking lots of negative stuff.. Thinking ways to forget everything. Thinking how to do everything from A to Z. Thinking how to become smarter. Thinking why i bother so much. Thinking why this has to happen. Thinking why my body sux. Thinking why i care so much. Thinking why this and that happen. Thinking why im in this world in the 1st place. Thinking what i need to do. Thinking what to make myself a better person. Thinking why im so useless. Thinking why im hopeless n helpless.. Thinking..................

Sigh! Plan to slp early but due to some reason, im fully awake.. Job well done.. I haven been sleeping well for about a week or i should say almost everyday.. Im a light sleeper. A little bit of noise, movement can wake me up.. Once im awake, it's freaking difficult for me to get back to sleep. When im asleep, I have been waking up almost every hour.. This makes me pissed off at times, cos im sleepy but yet it is difficult for me to sleep.



That's why if you want me to stay up the whole night, I can! Just give me something to do and i will be fully awake.. But of course the next day, i will be super duper moody..


Something is really wrong with me.. But.. well, im not saying it out.. Just let it be.. I know myself well.. If i can endure i should be fine.. Well, at least IM NOT torturing myself..

Enf saying.. I shall stop here and i will keep quiet..

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whatever.. This is my last post

Title: whatever.. This is my last post


I cant sleep.. Dammit.. Im still awake at this hour.. -.-" Been coughing alot.. Something is not right somewhere.. Fk!! No worries ppl.. I have said, no more mc mean no more.. No matter how sick im, I will still be in office..


Dear dear is on long leave frm tomorrow onwards.. Well.. I need to work.. :( Sigh!! Enjoy ur long leave dear..


Sigh!! I think im gonna stop this blog already.. I PROMISE.. THIS IS MY LAST POST.. Blog should be a secret place for me.. But it dont seem like one anymore.. NB... Forget it.. NO MORE BLOG..


Ok.. Wanna stop here.. Feeling very shag out liao.. Will try to sleep.. Bye All and Bye to my blog!!!


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Sigh.. No game.. nth..

Title: Sigh.. No game.. nth..


My stupid.. dont know is the stupid mouse pad or what shit.. I just cant play my game properly while others r enjoying.. -.-" Sigh! Better dont play ba.. They play with public so serious, i keep dying will bring dwn the score for them nia..


Today at work dont seem to be gd.. Sigh! Im soo upset about everything.. :( Forget it ba.. Nvm.. Keep silent and everything will be fine.. :p


Today whole day i dont know what the fuck happen to me.. Chest pain like fk.. a few time i suddenly cant breathe.. Have to keep coughing.. ZzZz..


Im soo shag out.. It is time for me to stop gaming after work and start sleeping early.. Cos either dec or next year my plan will start..


Im considering to ask to convert to a part-timer le.. Then maybe look for another job.. work 2 job at one go.. whoohoo..


ok ba.. wanna sleep liao.. Super tired... Bye!


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Copyright © 09 November 2010, Monday 06:42AM
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:(

Title: :(


Feeling soo sleepy and yet i cant sleep.. zzz... Later still hv to go to the post office to collect something.. They close at 1pm.. Oh my.. I also dont know if i can wake up at 12pm a not.. zZz..


Sigh!! I dont know how to blog la.. ZzZz... Nvm.. I will stop here ba.. No mood to blog.. will stop here.. bye!


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Copyright © 06 November 2010, Saturday 07:49AM
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oh well

Title: oh well


Feeling very pissed off with lots of things but i cant do anything.. Lier r always a lier.. NB!! So well, I will just have to torture myself and just go with it.. Sigh.. Frm yesterday onwards i have do my very best to act nth have happen.. Just shut my bloody mouth up.. Which im trying very hard to do so..


My lung infection... I dont know hw it goes.. cos no x-ray was done.. But im still hving chest pain.. So I hv to make sure i cough less n cry less.. As for UTI.. Fk.. It seem to come back again.. NB... Believe it should be fine ba..


Well, year 2010 is not a gd year but i think year 2011 will be worse for me.. Seriously... I think i will suffer even more... In my mind, i have plans for 2011already.. (i think my plan will start on dec 2010.. I shall see how.. PLS DONT ASK ME.. THANKS!! )I believe i will see more $$$ coming in.. But of course i guess more problem as well.. And less enjoyment.. (so ppl, dont ask me out during my off days.. I will fk u guys...) But i dont give a damn.. I mean what i have said.. Of course you guys will see NO mc anymore..


Sigh!! I can only said, it's just sux.. I will give what u guys want.. Sigh.. Later have to work.. so sad.. :(


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FK.. Fk the pain as well.. Fk everything..

Title: FK.. Fk the pain as well.. Fk everything..


Super pissed off.. I should have not went to polyclinic.. Everything HAPPEN because of this.. Doctor frm AH (Alexandra hospital) asked me to go polyclinic for x-ray due to my lung infection and urinary tract infection on the 5 days (which is yesterday actually.. But i went today cos im off.. They want to check after 6 days of antibiotics how's the outcome..).. But the polyclinic doctor nv do anything.. Told the doctor my chest pain for few days already.. Doctor said, yes cos i have lung infection.. Well done.. I fk care already.. Give up.. Not gonna bother already.. No more polyclinic and hospital..


Today is just not the day.. Dont know what the fk happen also.. NB.. Sigh!! Waste my bloody time as well.. Sigh!!


Fk la.. Having hard time blogging using iphone.. Shall stop here.. In short FUCK everything la.. Chest pain let it be ba.. Not sleeping as im out.. FOr... erm i dont know..


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Pain in silent

Title: Pain in silent


Dont know why my chest is knocking on me the whole freaking day.. Esp when freaking customer makes me angry.. The pain is even painful.. Pain in silent is the only way i can escape.. I was thinking if it got worse later what should i do? Ha.. Wait and see...


Im freaking sleepy and yet i cant sleep.. Dammit.. Im freaking pissed off right now.. zZzZz....


Dun hv the mood to do anything now.. sigh!!!


Dear dear I love you.. Haha!!


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