What you believe is what you will achieve: August 2012

30 August 2012

exhausted

Title: exhausted

Im so exhausted.. Have not been sleeping well lately.. Been traveling from one place to another.. Hv been traveling from home to hospital for weekends and monday and tuesday.. Wednesday decided to go back to work but when i was about to reach office my mum called said she can go home.

So i went to work and had meeting, after that talked to my boss for awhile then off to the hospital and home..

Im so tired till i stand also can fall asleep.. I gave my mum 2 option, 1 she go over to my cousin place to stay while i get back to work. 2 i work from home (short period only). She doesn't want to go over to my cousin place as she wants to quit smoking. My cousin dad smoke as well. Therefore, i have no choice but to work from home. I dont like it.. Feel uneasy =.= But at least i can keep an eyes on my mum..

Just hope my mum can recover fast. This is the 2nd time she got a stroke already.. Im freaking worry. Esp after my big boss told me her story about her family members. Worry x double.. :( Like what the doctor told me, 1st time stroke will get the 2nd stroke. :( I just hope my mum really take care and be extra careful.

I think i worry too much already.. My chest is painful.. I need to relax and calm down.. Im gonna have lots of stress coming my way... Have told my mum to resign and rest at home.. She is not suitable to work.. I dont want her to feel stress out at work.. I told her i will be supporting her. Well, it is my duty to take good care and support her.. so im gonna be a workaholic again.. And that's the reason why i dont want to take leave this few days.. I rather work and im thankful my bosses understand and allow me to work from home.

My body is soo exhausted till the extend that i just dont feel like gaming and watching movies.. =.=" Sigh!! If only i can SMOKE to de-stress and help me stay awake.. But i cant.. So this is out.. (unless im allow to, when im so stress out now)..

I think im going to sleep already.. Tomorrow gonna start work at 9.30am at home.. Bye..

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26 August 2012

Worry

Title: Worry..

Sigh.. Im so worry about my mum condition. She suffer from stroke. :( I notice the symptoms on Friday.. She insist not to go to the hospital.. I have no choice but get her BFF for help and she manage to speak to my mum. My mum then finally agree to go down to SGH.From there after scans and blood test it is confirm stroke. She was admitted on Friday.

Lucky friday i went home early and did communicate with her. If not i dont know.. Her speech was somehow very different. So i asked her what happen to her mouth, she then told me, she is having hard time talking, her face, neck and left arm numb. I suspected it could be stroke.

I cant sleep well on Friday.. Trying hard to get to sleep.. Fall asleep for awhile and woke up.. This continues the whole night till i woke up at around 9plus in the morning.. Prepare and off to the hospital to visit her.

Saturday looking at her, it seem not very good. Friday at least she still can move her left hand properly but saturday she just feel so weak on her left hand. she said she cant close her mouth properly, so her saliva always flow out from the left side. This only happen on Saturday.

Sigh! Im so worry and scare.. :( Just dont know what to do.. :( Totally have no appetite to eat also.. Today the whole day i ate 3 breads for my breakfast, lunch and dinner. I dont feel hungry at all.

Thinking positive and trying hard to keep all my unhappy inner. I just hope and pray that my mum will recover ASAP.. Stay healthy. worry-less and happy always.

Monday the doctor gonna do one test to check if it is mild or serious stroke. The neck and heart doctor gonna see her as well. This will determine if she is stable to be discharge.

Later going down to visit her.. I dont think i can sleep well tonight.. My mind just cant stop thinking.. :(

Sigh!! :( :( :( Trying to playing game to forget the unhappiness but i dont think it help.. Watching running man also dont help :( :( Sigh! Guess i will stop here..

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16 August 2012

Agreement

Title: Agreement

Where is our agreement? Sigh!!!!

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15 August 2012

stubborn

Title: stubborn

Im soo tired.. Think i should sleep early today.. My body is still not use to the normal timing.. -.-" I shall watch movies/videos till i fall asleep.

Work was kinda ok today.. Felt very lazy... But overall still ok.. Hmm, my friend got shortlisted to join me already.. I really hope this time round she will change.. Im like her career guidance.. The past job was intro by me (except for mac).. I think this will be the last time i can help her already.. I cant be helping her all the time right? Then if anything goes wrong how? who's at fault? Me right? Anyway, wish her all the best :)

My bf msg me said he keep having diarrhea.. Must be his dinner already.. Cos they usually pack food for him and most of time he is busy and eat them late. Have already said sooooooo many time not to keep food for long.. Esp wet food (with sauce and chili), veg type of food. This type of food turn bad very easily.. Tabao food always turn bad fast.. Wah Kao, Sibe stubborn.. Just dont get it, why you ppl dont want to listen.. His mum also.. Aiyo.. Everytime i see pack food at his house and keep it for hours im always so scare.. Cannot finish then dont buy so much.. i will usually eat till i full, if cannot finish throw away already.. That's y i always tell the person to give me less rice, less whatever can be.. (dont want to waste food. So usually i will have super heavy lunch..) Hungry then i eat bread.. Dear, DONT BE LAZY.......... Go out and tabao if you think you gonna eat them late. You always nv learn your lesson =.= Stubborn stubborn and stubborn..

Anyway, wish him get well soon. Hope he start to learn his lesson (which i think he wont). So no point saying.. =.= I just wasted my time blogging here..

Ok i shall stop here and movie CUM sleep.. Bye!!

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07 August 2012

sick

Title: sick

Just woke up from sleep.. Had a stupid dream again... :( (stupid dream as in those dream that make me cry in the dream and when i woke up, im really crying.) Keep getting stupid dream lately... Sigh!! Anyway, im on mc.. Been sick since last week but yesterday it got worst.. Yesterday drag myself to work but i cant do that today.. Down with fever, cough, flu, sore throat and asthma.. Yesterday reach home from work, i bath slacked and slept for quiet long.. Hopping that i can drag myself to work today but i failed..

Anyway, yesterday got 2 new staff join us. One under my team and another under sale.. Right away, the damn gal started to influence the new staff already.. Oh my.. Im so scare that she will teach him the wrong stuff today.. I eventually msg my team leader not to attach the new staff to her. He suppose to be attach under me for the next few days.. Just hope he dont learn any bad stuff from the damn gal..

Yesterday dear dear said he was asked to play GW3.. Please dont.. Cos of D3 we are already meeting lesser and lesser.. If you play GW3 that's it.. We no need to meet already.. Now at least when we are bored we just login to play D3.. I know sat you wanna play game also but cos im there you nv.. (a few time hopping i sleep early.) I purposely try not to meet you cos I know your heart is still on game.. If you play GW3 then i think we can forget about meeting each other already... Once you play game you are just too into it already.. :( :( I dont like.. (sorry dear, dont get angry.. I say this just to let you know. I just dont want our r/s to have any problem just because of game.. U have an experience before so you should understand better.) Count the number of time we quarrel due to gaming? hmmm, alot..

I think i injure my left arm.. Whenever i move it hurt so must.. I dont understand why it hurt so much. The pain is right between the joint and the bone. But when i try pressing it, i dont feel pain.. -.- It's been like week already.. Stupid arm.. Pain for no reason..

Ok, time to watch running man :)Enf sleep, if not later i cant sleep again..

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03 August 2012

_

Title: *_*

Went to work today, although im sick.. Been coughing and having block nose.. And my eyes are so painful.. :( It's so irritating.. Anyway, today at work was fine. Can say not so busy although im doing 2 jobs.. Both need to call customer.

Im gonna to bed already... Been resting on my bed since i reach home from work. (of course after shower).. Ok, guess i will stop here.. Im soo tired..

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