pain pain and pain..

Title: pain pain and pain..


Feeling so disappointed with lots of thing.. sigh! nvm.. Dont wish to mentioned much.. Anyway, as for work.. Aaa.. Boss talked to me alot today and i think there is an win win solution la.. I have told him already.. So if they take me as re-hire i also accept.. Dont wanna bother them much.. hmm...

wow liao.. I dont know hw long i can tahan next year? I really dont know. Everything change.. Answering mobile calls are really pain in the ass at times.. Ppl are much more demanding and nasty.. :( I really hope year 2011 will be a better year ahead... I really hope..

I think i cant drink coffee anymore.. Monitor for few days already. Each time i drink, my chest pain like hell.. Feeling giddy also.. So uncomfortable.. cannot be le.. Last time no problem.. Im gonna try it again tomorrow.. I dont believe.. The stupid pain last the whole freaking day.. Now im still in pain.. and im coughing.. WTF.. Making the pain worse.. Sigh!!

Im soo sleepy.. But i cant sleep.. Wonderful.. What should i do? I really dont know.. I shall watch movie.. Happy new year everyone... :D

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what causing the pain

Title: what causing the pain


Sigh! The company seem to be fool-ing me around.. I felt so cheated by them. :( Everything pro-rated.. :( 13mths Bonus and upcoming bonus are pro-rated(for bonus the boss said will chk and let me know.. I believe it will be pro-rated).. This is so unfair. :( So sad..


Sigh! I dont know what happen... Im having chest pain again.. :( Took pain killer just now but the pain is still on and off.. I really dont know izzit the heart problem causing the pain or due to heart burn.. Seriously i dont know...


I shall see how later.. If the pain still persist i will have to go to SGH already.. Im still thinking should i go for the operation. I think last year the doctor did said i dont really need the operation.. I cant remember.. I have to ask the doctor again.. The medicine given to be can make me giddy as it will lower down my blood pressure.. So i always try not to take the medicine.. Nvm, i shall see how ba..


Yeah, im using iphone 4G :) Jailbreak already but i cant off my phone. Have wait for the latest software so that i can re-jailbreak again.. :D wait and wait and wait... hehe!!


Im soo sleepy.. Will try to sleep.. Sad to say i still have to work till Thursday and then off on Friday.. :( aww.. Sigh!!


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health vs IPhone 4G

Title: health vs IPhone 4G


sigh!! Im feeling sad... There goes my iphone 4G @ 600 buck no contract... :( Im suppose to go back to the office with dear dear to collect our IPhone 4G @ 12pm.. But all thanks to the chest pain and giddiness... :( Sob sob dear dear..


Well, at least i know health is more important.. So i decided to stay at home.. Just took my medicine.. Going back to bed again soon, waiting for the medicine to kick in..


Sigh!! I have not do any shopping for xmas.. HOW???????? Aww... Forget it la... Not celebrating xmas... Stay at home..


Wanna go and sleep already.. Bye!!


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Rashes,giddy..

Title: Rashes,giddy..


Sigh!! I wanna play game but feeling giddy so decided to stop.. Just now my mum sister was telling me to go for operation for my heart.. -.-" I dont think i need it ba.. Anyway, im scare as well.. Later i go in and nv come out how? (Touch wood).. Im not brave enf for this..


Chest pain is still on and off.. But cough is much better.. Only left with sore throat.. SMILE :D I just want my chest pain and palpitations to go away.. Cos the stupid palpitations medicine can bring dwn my blood pressure and i always feel giddy after eating it.. :( But these few days im feeling giddy even im not eating the palpitations medicine.. I really dont know why..


Shit.. I wonder when the nurse took blood test frm me was the needle clean.. Im having rashes and blue black on both my arms.. I didnt told the nurse about the rashes before i discharge was because i tot it is normal.. Who knows it is getting worse..


I have been sleeping all day long.. But i just dont understand why im still soo sleepy and tired... ok la.. Time to sleep again.. bye!!!


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Hospitalization

Title: Hospitalization


I have been sleeping since i reach home just now.. Was admitted to NUH on Friday 17 dec.. This is just the reason why i dont want to see a doctor.. I actually went to work on 17 dec but my chest pain got worse and i was having breathing difficulties so i went home.. Went dwn to NUH to see a doctor. And was told i need to be admitted..


Actually, thursday i was at Alexandra hospital.. The doctor just throw me at observation ward for about 2hrs then ask me to go home.. I did told them im hving breathing difficulties.. But they nv do anything.. -.-" They told me nth wrong.. So Friday it got worse and i went straight dwn to NUH..


Was having chest pain, lung infection, breathing difficulties, on and off fever, cough, sore throat and low blood pressure.. Doctor keep me for 2 days.. He actually want me to stay still monday -.-" But i dun want.. was discharge today (Sunday).. YEAH!! :D soo happy.. Cos i cant sleep well in the hopsital.. The doctor and nurse keep on waking me up at night.. :( Blood test, ECG scan and blood pressure.. wow liao..


Resting at home is better.. :D No one disturb me.. Doctor gave me 6 days of Hospitalization leave.. I hope i can get well soon.. Have to follow-up with heart centre to check on my heart condition..


I feel like going back to office le.. I got cases need to follow-up.. -.-" I dont want to see doctor because i want to finish up my cases at work 1st.. But sigh, who knows my condition got worse.. Dammit..


Ok.. Wanna stop here already.. Time to zzzz.. Bye all..


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I knew it...

Title: I knew it...


Dammit.. Today seem to be a tough day for me.. Not the training itself, but my body.. Stomach dont seem gd since yesterday (i should say the past few days..) and was coughing badly also.. But i dont bother.. Slept at around 3 or 4plus in the morning then my mum woke me up at around 6am++ -.-". (Thanks to her.. Before she left for work at around 7plus.. Shit, she woke me up again.. AWww.. I was fed up and woke up and prepare for work..) My stomach was soo uncomfortable and throat is damn pain dwn with fever also. But like i said, no mc and i cant take also.. I need to conduct training, so Lan Lan have to go back to office..


Reach office i had diarrhea.. -.-" But i still manage to conduct the training.. No appetite at all. But i tried to eat something but then again diarrhea after eating.. Dammit.. Till now i dont dare to eat anything.. Cos i had diarrhea again..


Took cab home and I wanted to see doctor just now.. But the clinic is close so i went home.. nvm.. At home have fever and cough medicine.. Tomorrow will be a better day.. After training tomorrow, will be going back to office to OT.. Well, like i said, just wanna numb myself.. And stop myself frm thinking and worry so much..

WHAT THE FUCK (sorry i dont wanna scold this but i hv no choice.. COS IM SUPER PISSED...).. I was helping my mum with her phone and saw a sms frm morning team leader asking who is the trainer on thursday onwards.. And the thing is, lucky i chk my mum phone cos she sms to that number.. Lucky i chk my email just now and told her that i will be having training on Thursday, Friday and Monday..

Guess what she said, the training im suppose to go have change to next year (JAN).. FK la.. No one inform me at all.. If i nv chk my mum phone just now and asked about the training, i will wake up early and go back to office for NTH.. WHAT THE FUCK are they doing? Trying to fool me izzit? Im soo sick, stress and worry (worry about dear dear) and now this? FK U ALL LA..

Now they are asking me to conduct iphone training on 20 to 22 dec.. FK.. fooling me here and there.. I plan to see doctor for my chest pain next week, cos i sense something not right somewhere already.. But now this.. They pissed me off once again.. Aww.. The big boss also sms me saying want to talk to me.. I will feedback to him on thursday with regards to this issue.

Wanna go and do my stuff already.. My head is so heavy.. FK IT..

Ps: btw gal, went will we have beer drinking session? But be prepare i will get drunk hor..


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body aching and shag out

Title: body aching and shag out


Oh shit.. It have been raining since afternoon at around 4plus? I think.. Walking in the rain seem cool :) But the stupid thing is, the moment you started sneezing which is bad.. No worries.. Im not that weak la.. Someone must be missing me..


Yesterday i manage to fall asleep for like 1hr? (was thinking the whole day.. and suddenly i was switch off and another moment my alarm rang.. -.-") Then i woke up.. Super sleepy and was having terrible sore throat and body aching but i dont have the choice... Cos I die die have to go back to office to give training..


Im quite surprise to see everyone is awake during the training.. It is a big class -.-" (about 10 ppl..) So of course i do my best to stay awake.. Giving as much training as possible.. Hmm.. I only give 2 breaks.. oops.. Sorry!! I will give more tomorrow.. :D


I hope my sore throat dont get worse tomorrow and wednesday.. After wednesday nvm.. cos i dont have to talk :) Ppl will then give me training :D


During the training and right now at this moment.. I just dont understand why my mind is still thinking non-stop.. Oh gosh.. Awww.. Im just worry.. Sigh!!


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The wound is so deep :(

Title: The wound is so deep :(


Im suppose to sleep but i cant sleep anymore.. I have to reach office @ 8.30am later.. I want to sleep.. im feeling so shag out but i cant sleep.. Im so fan.. Fan till my head is soo painful.. Eaten pain killer but it is not helping.. My mind is soo stress up nw.. Not mainly about work la.. Work seem ok for me today.. It's just that, i was soo stress with other things i screw up alot of things myself..


Anyway, went google search just now and notice, In the morning i have panic attack. Same goes for just now.. I forget how i stop the attack.. I dont why i have panic attack..


Well, the wound in my heart is getting deeper and deeper.. It is so difficult to heal.. Im feeling soo useless, soo depressed, so helpless, so stupid and im just a extra.. Seeking for help and advise but all advise i have tried but failed.. Im totally loss.. :(


Sigh!! Hao fan la.....................


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Copyright © 13 December 2010, Monday 04:20AM
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break down

Title: break down


Im freaking tired.. That's the only thing i can say.. Lately before 4am i sleep already.. That's not me.. Sigh! Im dwn again.. The stupid cough and sore throat is causing alot of problem.. Cough till just now i vomited twice.. Once in office and once just now.. Lucky i eat less.. So only water and phlegm came out.. Having breathing difficulties and chest pain.. Dammit... Lucky i have medicine at home.. wait for dear dear.. We shall see doctor together maybe tomorrow...


In air-con room it got worse.. >_<" Fever went dwn already.. :) Just now was having high fever but i cant do much.. Like i said, no matter how sick am I, i will still work.. Lately at work, i just keep quiet and work.. Do my stuff and dont bother much.. I have already do my best to answer as many calls as i can already.. I just dont have the heart to push poor customer away.. If i can help, i will help.. If i cant help, i have no choice..


Im suppose to give iphone training tomorrow.. But have change to next week.. Next week, whole week im gonna be real tired.. Monday to wednesday i need to give iphone training (I need to talk alot).. Thursday to Friday, I have cabletv cross training.. (I sit dwn and listen..) Saturday, cousin wedding.. Sunday finally rest and monday training again.. -.-"


Then back to work then maybe still got training coming up.. Give iphone training and i go for training.. -.-" Shall wait for news.. Cos, they like to inform us at the very last min..


ok ba.. I wanna sleep already.. Eat medicine and try to sleep.. Bye!!


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watch and feel the pain silently

Title: watch and feel the pain silently


Everyday i feel the pain.. I watch and i cant do anything.. My heart is so painful.. I have to just act as if i dont bother..(But im actually bothering and worry ) At work im already so stress out and now add-ons to more stress.. Im going crazy soon.. I have no choice but to act as if nth happen.. Every time i have to pause before i said anything..


Now at work, im trying to be loner.. But i just cant.. Everyone is coming up to me and LAME.. -.-" Work stress, some other things stress.. life stress.. awww.. Im trying very hard to be strong but i cant.. Cos my limit is up..


Sigh!! Im having alot of problem sleeping.. At home still manage to sleep a little bit.. But im always awake every 1 to 2 hr.. Noise is always the problem at home.. At dear dear house worse.. I fall asleep for like half an hr and im awake by Noise, movement, poor dear dear cough and asthma is always the problem.. Dont tell me i got insomnia.. Cos once im awake it is hard to get back to sleep.. Im always lack of sleep.. :(


Lately at home i have been trying to sleep early.. Latest 5am i sleep already.. But in between i will still wake up.. Aww.. My body is hinting me something.. Today i feel so weak.. I feeling very cold the whole day.. Having slight fever and sore throat.. I really hope my fever dont get worse tomorrow.. Cos i need to work.. Is time for me 中医... -.-" I wanna sleep but every half to 1 hr i keep waking up.. That really pissed me off.. So i give up sleeping.. -.-"


Wow, Friday, Saturday and Sunday will be a big problem for me.. Cos i need to wake up at around 7am.. Dead.. I cannot feel sleepy.. I need to be awake cos i have to train ppl.. ZzZz..


Sigh!! I have enf saying.. I will just go on with this type of feeling.. I believe one day i will get numb.. We shall see..


ok.. I will stop here.. Bye!!


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Trying to fool me

Title: Trying to fool me


I can be joking and luffing.. But inner me is still confuse and hurt.. Why ppl can just go without any problem but i cant? Im just a normal technical officer like everyone.. Was told cos they treasure me.. I dont believe all this.. BULLSHIT..


Lately im kinda attitude towards the boss and hopping with this type of attitude they will ask me to leave.. Im trying to work quietly and I will shut my bloody mouth up.. Lame lesser..


I feel so depress.. Im not as strong as before.. I give up things easily.. Sigh!! im giving iphone training again.. Im wondering how many training they want us to give.. Give stop give stop give and stop again...


Sigh!! I dont know WHAT TO DO.... Anyway, human are all selfish.. Sigh!! Honestly, i need a long break.. But i dont have leave.. Aww..My mind is dead at the moment... Aww...


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Controlling hard..

Title: Controlling hard..


Just now at work, I have been controlling very very hard not to cry.. 1st reach office already Im freaking pissed off.. Tears in my eyes but manage to hold my tears frm rolling dwn.. Im pissed and yet feel extremely guilty.. I know the effort u put in.. but... Sigh!!


The whole day my mind is dead.. I have given up... Im so confuse and lots of negative tots are all running up to my mine.. Seriously, i cant take any jokes and nth get into me since afternoon.. And i think this gonna stay...


Actually, in the cab.. I have rolled dwn with tears quietly.. Trying hard to hold my tears back.. Im trying very hard to be strong and i dont want to give up so easily but im really really tired... My mind is asking me to just give up but my body is holding back..


Once i step into the hus, I burst into tears.. For about an hour.. But i still cant forget.. Im still so confuse and mine keep saying goodbye...


I dont wamt my poor dear dear to suffer due to all this shit.. Nth got to do with him but why are they dragging him into this? Why is there so many problems?


Why is it so difficult to go? WHY?


PS: sry dear dear.. I think i give you alot of problem at work.. Im so sry! :( I love you...


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Not again..

Title: Not again..


Sigh!! I hate it so much.. Gonna have training again.. :( 8.30pm to 6pm.. I hate this.. Either i dont sleep or i sleep for like 1 to 2hrs only.. My body clock is fix now.. i cant change it.. I dont want training.. Training training and training.. WT... :(


I have make up my mind already.. Which is to dont bother about anything.. Leave as it is.. Keep quiet.. The most deep dwn in my heart i feel the pain (heart broken)..


Sad... :( Feeling so so sad.. Sigh!! Wow liao.. Super bored.. Whole day i have been playing blackshot and watch fairy tails.. Im not with dear dear... Ha! Anyway, if im with him, i will do the same thing.. Cos he will watch his anime and sleep.. It makes no different.. Only different is my mum nag nia.. Nth much..


Dear dear, no matter what i still love you.. Seriously i love you so much that i cant live without you.. And that's e reason why i choose not to bother about what you do already.. Like what ppl always said, enjoy today as you do not know what will happen the next day.. Well, im just so useless.. I cant change you and i guess you change me (a little la.. Grown some fats and at least i cut dwn on my coffee intake alot already.. And im trying very hard to stop drinking it.. Cos i knw its bad for my heart condition.. N whatever u said i will do my very best to listen frm now on.. But of course must be reasonable..).. You asked me to help you to cut dwn on this and that but i cant make it.. I dont want to quarrel with you everyday... It makes me give up easily.. It makes me feel useless... It makes me feel guilty and baka..


Only thing i wanna said for sure is, I choose you and i will live forever with u.. I will die with u.. :D You are the one and only.. I love you frm the bottom of my heart.. Hehe!! Muack.. I miss you badly...


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What can i do forget?

Title: What can i do to forget?

My mind started to think hard again.. Thinking lots of negative stuff.. Thinking ways to forget everything. Thinking how to do everything from A to Z. Thinking how to become smarter. Thinking why i bother so much. Thinking why this has to happen. Thinking why my body sux. Thinking why i care so much. Thinking why this and that happen. Thinking why im in this world in the 1st place. Thinking what i need to do. Thinking what to make myself a better person. Thinking why im so useless. Thinking why im hopeless n helpless.. Thinking..................

Sigh! Plan to slp early but due to some reason, im fully awake.. Job well done.. I haven been sleeping well for about a week or i should say almost everyday.. Im a light sleeper. A little bit of noise, movement can wake me up.. Once im awake, it's freaking difficult for me to get back to sleep. When im asleep, I have been waking up almost every hour.. This makes me pissed off at times, cos im sleepy but yet it is difficult for me to sleep.



That's why if you want me to stay up the whole night, I can! Just give me something to do and i will be fully awake.. But of course the next day, i will be super duper moody..


Something is really wrong with me.. But.. well, im not saying it out.. Just let it be.. I know myself well.. If i can endure i should be fine.. Well, at least IM NOT torturing myself..

Enf saying.. I shall stop here and i will keep quiet..

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whatever.. This is my last post

Title: whatever.. This is my last post


I cant sleep.. Dammit.. Im still awake at this hour.. -.-" Been coughing alot.. Something is not right somewhere.. Fk!! No worries ppl.. I have said, no more mc mean no more.. No matter how sick im, I will still be in office..


Dear dear is on long leave frm tomorrow onwards.. Well.. I need to work.. :( Sigh!! Enjoy ur long leave dear..


Sigh!! I think im gonna stop this blog already.. I PROMISE.. THIS IS MY LAST POST.. Blog should be a secret place for me.. But it dont seem like one anymore.. NB... Forget it.. NO MORE BLOG..


Ok.. Wanna stop here.. Feeling very shag out liao.. Will try to sleep.. Bye All and Bye to my blog!!!


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Sigh.. No game.. nth..

Title: Sigh.. No game.. nth..


My stupid.. dont know is the stupid mouse pad or what shit.. I just cant play my game properly while others r enjoying.. -.-" Sigh! Better dont play ba.. They play with public so serious, i keep dying will bring dwn the score for them nia..


Today at work dont seem to be gd.. Sigh! Im soo upset about everything.. :( Forget it ba.. Nvm.. Keep silent and everything will be fine.. :p


Today whole day i dont know what the fuck happen to me.. Chest pain like fk.. a few time i suddenly cant breathe.. Have to keep coughing.. ZzZz..


Im soo shag out.. It is time for me to stop gaming after work and start sleeping early.. Cos either dec or next year my plan will start..


Im considering to ask to convert to a part-timer le.. Then maybe look for another job.. work 2 job at one go.. whoohoo..


ok ba.. wanna sleep liao.. Super tired... Bye!


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Copyright © 09 November 2010, Monday 06:42AM
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:(

Title: :(


Feeling soo sleepy and yet i cant sleep.. zzz... Later still hv to go to the post office to collect something.. They close at 1pm.. Oh my.. I also dont know if i can wake up at 12pm a not.. zZz..


Sigh!! I dont know how to blog la.. ZzZz... Nvm.. I will stop here ba.. No mood to blog.. will stop here.. bye!


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Copyright © 06 November 2010, Saturday 07:49AM
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oh well

Title: oh well


Feeling very pissed off with lots of things but i cant do anything.. Lier r always a lier.. NB!! So well, I will just have to torture myself and just go with it.. Sigh.. Frm yesterday onwards i have do my very best to act nth have happen.. Just shut my bloody mouth up.. Which im trying very hard to do so..


My lung infection... I dont know hw it goes.. cos no x-ray was done.. But im still hving chest pain.. So I hv to make sure i cough less n cry less.. As for UTI.. Fk.. It seem to come back again.. NB... Believe it should be fine ba..


Well, year 2010 is not a gd year but i think year 2011 will be worse for me.. Seriously... I think i will suffer even more... In my mind, i have plans for 2011already.. (i think my plan will start on dec 2010.. I shall see how.. PLS DONT ASK ME.. THANKS!! )I believe i will see more $$$ coming in.. But of course i guess more problem as well.. And less enjoyment.. (so ppl, dont ask me out during my off days.. I will fk u guys...) But i dont give a damn.. I mean what i have said.. Of course you guys will see NO mc anymore..


Sigh!! I can only said, it's just sux.. I will give what u guys want.. Sigh.. Later have to work.. so sad.. :(


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Copyright © 05 November 2010, Friday 06:28AM
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FK.. Fk the pain as well.. Fk everything..

Title: FK.. Fk the pain as well.. Fk everything..


Super pissed off.. I should have not went to polyclinic.. Everything HAPPEN because of this.. Doctor frm AH (Alexandra hospital) asked me to go polyclinic for x-ray due to my lung infection and urinary tract infection on the 5 days (which is yesterday actually.. But i went today cos im off.. They want to check after 6 days of antibiotics how's the outcome..).. But the polyclinic doctor nv do anything.. Told the doctor my chest pain for few days already.. Doctor said, yes cos i have lung infection.. Well done.. I fk care already.. Give up.. Not gonna bother already.. No more polyclinic and hospital..


Today is just not the day.. Dont know what the fk happen also.. NB.. Sigh!! Waste my bloody time as well.. Sigh!!


Fk la.. Having hard time blogging using iphone.. Shall stop here.. In short FUCK everything la.. Chest pain let it be ba.. Not sleeping as im out.. FOr... erm i dont know..


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Pain in silent

Title: Pain in silent


Dont know why my chest is knocking on me the whole freaking day.. Esp when freaking customer makes me angry.. The pain is even painful.. Pain in silent is the only way i can escape.. I was thinking if it got worse later what should i do? Ha.. Wait and see...


Im freaking sleepy and yet i cant sleep.. Dammit.. Im freaking pissed off right now.. zZzZz....


Dun hv the mood to do anything now.. sigh!!!


Dear dear I love you.. Haha!!


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Copyright © 01 November 2010, Monday 06:58AM
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restless..

Title: restless..


Im feeling so restless and weak.. :( Yesterday i slept early and tot of waking up at 2am for gaming session but i failed to wake up.. Only manage to woke up today morning at 8plus.. Im going back to bed again soon.. Sigh!!


Yesterday went to Alexandra hospital with dear dear.. Have to thanks dear dear for accompany and asked me to go to the hospital. (THANK YOU DEAR DEAR aka fiance) If not i dont even know i have lung infection.. Thanks that i do nt have to hospitalize.. Doctor wanted me to, but i look at him and said, do i really hv too? Heng at that point of time my fever go away.. :D Smile.. Im still monitoring my fever.. Have a slight fever just now.. but after medication im fine now.. :)


Doctor said I have urinary tract infection and lung infection.. Sigh!! Now on 2 course of antibiotics.. Sianz!! :( In another 4days times i need to visit polyclinic to do another x-ray to chk on my lung infection.. Fuck up.. To be honest my chest hurt..


Dear dear, thank you for everything u have done. Im so sorry.. Dont worry about me.. Im fine.. :) Smile... :) Sunflower smile :) Take care dear dear.. I love you!! muack!!


Im going to bed liao.. Bye all..


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Copyright © 28 October 2010, Wednesday 12:43PM
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Sigh...

Title: Sigh....


Just now received sms frm Deyi about wed (tomorrow) class outing.. Sad to say i cant go.. Im working till 2am. -.-" Sigh!! Long time no see class outing and i cant go.. zZz.. :(


Sigh!! Im on mc again.. Guess all along i have urine infection which im not aware.. No wonder im sick for so long and i haven recover.. Fever going on and off.. Only notice that when it was bleeding when i passed urine..(that was on Sunday..)


Today woke up, i was feeling so giddy and weak... Went back to bed and slept all the way till 9pm++ close to 10pm.. Woke up bath and tried to eat something and had my medicine.. Game awhile with Wallen and Steve and Im going to bed after blogging..


Dun know why im feeling soo giddy and i feel like puking but i just cant.. Fever is going on and off.. :( Sigh!! Hope tomorrow im fine.. Which i believe i should be fine..


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My bf aka husband is soo sweet

Title: My bf aka husband is soo sweet


Today i did not went to work. Cos i woke up and im still having slight fever and dear dear asked me to rest at home too.. Sigh!! But at least im much better as compare to past few days.. I just hope my cough, sore throat and flu go away asap.. It is just making me soo pissed..


Oh my, Today dear dear gave me a surprise.. He came to my house with a sun flower and porridge.. (he even took leave just to visit me..) Thank you so much my dear.. You are soo sweet.. Im soo touch till words really cannot describe it.. I LOVE YOU dear dear... Muack Muack..


Tomorrow im going back to work.. I have to go back 1 an half hr early.. :( Have to do double banking (meaning, someone talk to customer i listen or another way round.. I not sure...) for mobile calls.. -.-" Sigh!!! Next year im gonna handle every single shit except billing.. Oh my.. I can feel the fear... Fear fear fear, it is drawing nearer and nearer..


Ok ba.. I wanna sleep for awhile.. Super shag out.. Cant sleep well at night.. sigh!! Later gaming with dear dear and the rest.. Bye all..


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Copyright © 19 October 2010, Monday 10:30PM
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Sleep and sleep and sleep..

Title: Sleep and sleep and sleep..


I just woke up not long.. Been sleeping the whole day.. Feeling so sick.. Fever have been going up and down for the past few days.. But now that it have went dwn.. Im so happy.. Yeah!! Thanks to the antibiotics.. I just dont understand why previously the doctor did not gave me antibiotics.. -.-" Waste my time and money to see a doctor again.. Damn..


Well, doctor said i have very bad throat inflammation that needs few days to recover and cos of that i cough too much and leads to asthma and chest pain.. >_<" Anyway, antibiotics and inflammation medicine(Prednisolene) still help me alot.. I hate to have cough, flu and block nose.. I cant sleep well.. :( DAMMIT..


Im on 2days mc.. But i think i will go back to work tomorrow.. Cos i cant stand my mum nagging at me.. Im trying very hard to communicate with her, but each time i start talking (just one sentence), she will end the topic and im feeling so angry and upset.. (meaning, she will nag and nag and nag)


I miss my dear dear so much.. Again sms him bo reply again.. So sad.. :( Sigh!! Wondering what went wrong with him.. Kinda worry about him.. Dear dear ah... I miss you sooooo much...


Im waiting for dear dear and the rest to reach home. Waiting for them to play blackshot.. I have been sleeping the whole day and i think i should stop.. Sleep too much also not very gd..


Ok, i shall stop here.. Going in to game and see if anyone around a not.. Bye all..


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Copyright © 18 October 2010, Monday 3:36AM
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Up and down

Title: Up and down


This will be my last post i guess.. I believe is time for me to close this blog DOWN.. Or I might only invite selected ppl to read my blog..


Past few days.. Soo many ups and downs.. But whatever it is, i cant do much.. Im learning to act as if there is nth happen.. I think this is the only way to solve everything.. I have enf.. Enf enf and enf..


Anyway, yesterday i slept at 10am++.. I also dont know why i sleep so "early".. Oh i was testing one of my customer online game.. SHIT.. I dont have problem.. Only problem is doing the patching itself.. So i manually done the patch and i manage to play the game without any problem.. Sianz.. I cant help this customer already.. It show that *hub no problem.. -.- sigh!! I have go the extra mile to help this poor customer.. And have put in my very best effort to help already.. I cant do much already.. I feel so hopeless..


Sianz.. Im home and i hate to be HOME.. My mum is always nagging.. FUCK.. Same old fucking shit.. Nag about money.. WTF.. I really dont know what to do.. I already kena nag for the past fucking few days and now i finally manage to be alone at home.. But she still nag.. sigh!!


will stop here already.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 06 October 2010, Wednesday 12:56AM
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Flu.. :(

Title: Flu.. :(


Yesterday before i go to work im already started with bad day.. Day was spoiled.. Super duper angry and upset that this actually happen.. Went to work worse.. Nvm.. Work is always shit.. I have customer having game lag issue and im actually downloading that bloody game now to try if im facing the same problem a not.. Waiting for it to complete.. sigh!!


Im down with flu and slight fever.. I dont give a damn.. Just feeling soo pissed off.. Seriously.. The more i think of it the more pissed and upset I am.. Sigh!! Nvm!! Im use to it already..


I dont know why i dont have the mood to play game.. Sigh!! Dun wanna sleep.. My mind is full of rubbish.. What can i do? Fuck it.. I will stop here ba.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 05 October 2010, Tuesday 5:05AM
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feeling weird

Title: feeling weird


Just had my shower.. Work sux.. That's what i can say.. Anyway, i dont know what happen to me.. Just nw at work out of sudden i have terrible chest pain.. The pain was irritating and unbearable.. Try to relax myself but it's difficult cos i have to talk to customer on the phone and worse some customer is way too demanding and making me soo angry.. The pain is still there but at least now it is on and off.. Whole body is feeling soo weird.. Having headache and cough as well.. What's next? >_<"


Just wait and see.. Think positive.. I will be fine.. No worries.. :) Later working again.. Another hell day.. Im hopping for the best..


Im soo soo sleepy.. But i wanna play game to de-stress myself.. Will play for awhile with my colleagues den off to bed..


Will stop here.. I forget what i wanna blog already.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 01 October 2010, Friday 4:12AM
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headache, sleepy

Title: headache, sleepy


Just now playing blackshot with colleagues.. At time it is gd to play shooting game to de-stress.. Waiting for my mum to wake up and wanna talk to her den i go n sleep.. Im super duper sleepy.. Just now in office while waiting for call to come in i fall asleep.. -.-"


Yesterday and just now dont know what happen to my head.. Having headache.. But after pain killer everything is fine.. :D I must try not to take pain killer, very bad for health.. lol!!


Later working.. Sianz... Think of the demanding dispute customer that i needed to contact, im feeling soo upset.. sigh!! PAIN IN THE ASS customer..


ok ba.. wanna stop here already.. Bye everyone!


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Copyright © 30 September 2010, Thursday 7:16AM
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oh man..

Title: oh man..


Such a boring off day.. Stay at home with dear dear.. watch drama and game.. -.-" Den dear dear sleeping.. Was told to wake him up at 2am++.. Now see la, he cant wake up.. Later gonna complaint again.. -.-"


Sometime i really dont know what to say him.. Dont know wake up so early in the afternoon for what? (I think i should try off day dont over to his hus would be a better choice.. Cos he sleep more..hmm..) Den at nite fall asleep well gaming.. Den later said, cannot sleep cos will fall asleep at work(diao).. Complaint tired... sigh!! Seriously i dont know what to do and help him.. Soo hopeless, im just a useless gf aka wife.. Trying to wake him up now so that later at work he wont fall asleep or feel tired.. But he just dont want to wake up.. Im at one point angry and at one point dont know what to do.. Forget it la.. I have enf saying.. Leave to him ba.. The more i say the more prob will happen..


I have alot of xin shi but aiya.. Fuck it la.. Dont know where to start also.. Soo better dont start..


Now they wanna play game.. But i have no mood to play.. Oh well.. Later working and i have one problematic customer waiting for me to call him back.. Sigh!! This customer is really pain in the ass (he is just looking for trouble..).. sigh!! No one can cheer me up.. So sad... :( FK it.. Life sux..


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Copyright © 29 September 2010, Wednesday 3:10AM
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appt and surprise

Title: appt and surprise

Today on leave cos i went for my appt at national heart center.. I should have not go.. Waste my time and i rather sleep a little longer and go to work.. Well, the doctor basically just repeat himself.. What the.. Yes i know my heart problem and yes u have show me the scan result way back.. I know where the leakage is and i know what happen.. This is the reason why i dont wish to follow-up on appt.. It is just wasting money and time.. I think i will do the same thing like what i have done before for NUH.. MIA for my appt..


Anyway, after that i went to Jurong point.. Getting something for dear dear.. :D I wanna give him a surprise. I will only upload the photos once dear dear see the surprise item.. I love it so much.. :D After that, the sale person said needs to give her 2hrs to do it.. So since i nv go over to my cousin place for soo long, so i went to find them just now.. Hahaha!!


They r surprise that i went and was surprise and happy that i gain weight.. :D Yes, honestly i did gain 1kg.. Just now the nurse weight it for me at Heart center.. I cant assure that i will maintain.. It's either i gain more weight or either i lose weight..


Well, I was shocked to see the maid passed a box of cigarettes to my cousin's mum.. Found out it was Mervin's one.. Sigh!! What happen to him? I dare not tell my mum and even his mum dare not let her husband know.. (which is Mervin's father..) To all my cousin who read my blog, pls keep it to urself.. I do not want anything happen to Mervin.. Just let his mum handle this alone.. Pls do not tell anyone.. Thank You!! This guy is getting frm bad to worse.. Frm what i heard.. His mum been complaining to me.. But i cant help.. Mervin's confirm will not listen to me.. Sigh!! I just hope his brother will not follow him.. PLS!! NO!!!


Anyway, i left at around 8plus.. They asked me to go over more often.. Asked me to bring my bf(no, i mean husband) along.. haha.. I said i will try.. LOL!! I shall see how ba..


Hmm, tomorrow off.. Im now waiting for my dear dear to come home.. Wanna give him warm big hug and kisses.. :D Yesterday dear dear and me went to Jurong Point as well.. We purchase our wedding band.. :D I love it cos it's unique.. We did not intend to buy.. Wanted to fix my proposal ring but ended up we purchase our wedding band ring.. haha..


ok ba.. I wanna stop here.. Take care everyone and have a great day ahead.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 27 September 2010, Monday 12:42AM
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sad :(

Title: sad :(


Nth to blog about.. Feeling soo upset.. Frm today onwards, i will just be myself.. Talk less care less worry less.. Believe i care too much and it leads to all this..


Thank you so much.. I cant sleep already.. Later working.. I shall just work and do my own stuff..


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Copyright © 22 September 2010, Wednesday 07:52Am
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Confused.. heartache.. Stress.. angry.. moody... Shag

Title: Confused.. heartache.. Stress.. angry.. moody... Shag

Work it always as shitty as it is.. Sigh!! Not gonna talk about it.. Im so stress up till my neck all the way to my shoulder hurt.. Anyway, frm today onwards i will just SHUT up.. Do my work quietly.. I will make sure i wont walk around anymore.. Unless i have question to ask or i want to go to the ladies..


I guess we have to change ourself 1st before saying others.. Pls just make sure you change before you screw others.. It makes ppl PISSED OFF WHEN YOU HAVE THE SAME ATTITUDE BUT ENDED UP U SCREW PPL FOR DOING THE SAME THING... THIS IS JUST SOO RIDICULOUS..


Im trying my very best to do/be what im suppose too.. But it is so difficult to do so.. Anyway, nvm.. Just do whatever i can.. DO MY VERY BEST CAN LIAO..


Honestly, im super duper sleepy and shag.. Yesterday i only slept for 2 to 3hrs only.. -.-" Guess today i dont think i can even sleep.. My mind is full of RUBBISH NOW..


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Copyright © 16 September 2010, Thursday 04:39Am
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Hao Fan.. Stress

Title: Hao Fan.. Stress


Yesterday i make a mistake again.. Mistake was, helping ppl to clear up their shit again.. And it wasted damn lots of my time talking to that damn ppl and he asked to do this and that.. Later must entertain him again.. Sigh!! Work is just as sucky as it is.. Been controlling my tears everyday.. It is so sucky that u will just think negative..


Well.. where is my salary adjustment letter?? I think they are just bluffing me back to work for them.. -.-" If not for the seek of money.. I will not go back.. I need money.. my mum need money.. everything need money..


Anyway, i dont know why but i have a sudden chest pain since just now.. Wonderful.. I dont know how long will the pain last.. -.- Im cutting dwn on my coffee intake already.. Trying (i should say, Im doing my best) to drink max of 2 cups per day.. I usually take about 4 to 5 cups per day..


Sigh!! Today is only Wednesday.. Gosh!! Faster Friday.. I need a big good rest and de-stress.. Cos, im too stress out till i find ppl around me are soo fucking irritating.. (except for my dear dear.. I just want to give him a big big warm hug..) I feel like asking them to GET LOST and FUCK OFF..


I wanna stop here already.. Wanna go and watch drama already.. Bye!!


I LOVE YOU My DEAR aka HUBBY.. :D


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Copyright © 15 September 2010, Wednesday 04:25Am
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work work and work

Title: work work and work


Working on public holiday.. So sianz.. But at least yesterday still manageable.. Later working.. -.-" Sad sad sad..


Yesterday, woke up down with fever, cough, sore throat and flu.. Fever goes on and off.. As for now, no fever.. :D Only flu, cough and sore throat.. I cant take mc.. Cos i have lots of cases needed to callback.. Sigh!! It is always the cough that make everything goes worse.. >_<" Sianz!!


Just now dont know what happen, my chest suddenly so painful.. Right now the pain is on and off.. I hope later no prob.. No matter what i still wont get mc.. Cos like i said, i have cases to follow-up.. But im thinking should i go back office early to accompany dear dear.. Start work at 2.30pm to 2am.. Shall see.. If tomorrow im feeling better i will go office early with dear dear..


Super sleepy.. Been not sleep well.. Cos of the stupid cough... -.-" Im soo shag.. Later will be a better day.. Ok ba.. I kinda lazy to carry on.. Wanna try sleeping already.. Nitez!!


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Copyright © 11 September 2010, Saturday 04:55Am
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sigh..

Title: sigh..


Today off... By right off day should be tomorrow but swap my off day.. Sianz.. Dwn with fever and cough.. Guess im too stress up already.. Dont give a damn already...


Sigh.. I give up saying already.. Dont promise when u cant do it.. This is what i hate the most.. Sigh!! This ALWAYS happen.. WHY??? Awww..


Fuck la.. Dont feel like blogging already.. Will stop here..


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Copyright © 08 September 2010, Wednesday 05:06Pm
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Kill me pls or can i kill ppl...

Title: Kill me pls or can i kill ppl...


Just had my shower.. Oh my.. I feel like vomiting but i cant.. I just cant throw out.. At that point, I had heart palpitation.. Aww.. Super duper uncomfortable .. Having terrible headache and im hving cough.. The feeling is sucky.. But thanks that my heart beating is back to normal.. Only sucky thingy is the feeling of throwing out but i just cant and the terrible headache.. :(


yesterday at work is just super duper shitty.. I dont knw what to say.. But seriously, at anytime i can just scold anyone around me (esp when im feeling soo uncomfortable...).. I was super duper pissed off, trying very hard to control my temper already.. I just dont understand why are they wasting money for a useless shit system... It is already freaking 1mth+ and the system is still giving so many problem.. Sigh!!


I believe im tiring up my body.. Im sorry flo's body.. Be strong.. 2more days and you can rest.. Pls be gd.. Dont let me feel soo uncomfortable..


Sigh!! I wanna go and watch drama already.. My mind cant get out of work.. >_<" Bye!!


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Copyright © 07 September 2010, Tuesday 04:16Am
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Craving for Durain and Durain puff

Title: Craving for Durain and Durain puff


Just finished facebook-ing.. Gonna watch drama after that.. Work is just as sucky as it can be.. Hmm, interesting thing was, i kena ex-ceo of *hub (Terry) (go n google search urself and u will know who he is..).. I didnt know it was him till he gave me his mobile number and when i located his account i was SHOCKED cum nervous.. But it is a nice experience talking to him on the phone.. :D


Anyway, i just feel like scolding ppl.. If only i can.. Sigh!! Nvm la, No one can be trusted.. Buddies at work? HUH?!?! Do I have any? Ha!! At work i dont think there is such thing called "buddies", the buddies only comes in after work.. Anyway, At least today i can sit dwn quietly to settle my own cases and ppl cases and ans call.. No one COME N DISTURB me.. Being anti-social is kinda gd, no one can disturb u.. How nice..


Sigh!! im craving for durain and durain puff.. For 3 days already.. I tot i can eat but dont know why i have been coughing.. Esp yesterday and now.. Hope i will get better by later.. :D Yeah!! Mei mei, let's go and eat durain together.. :D (oops, dear dear gonna kill me..)


Hmm, sat finally manage to meet up with poly classmates.. Everyone is still the same.. Still as lame as it is.. haha.. Sad to say, i left early.. Then went over to dear dear's hus.. Er Jie and daddy came over for MJ session.. Just few months i nv play, suddenly having game lag while playing.. haha!! -.-" Ok la!! I wanna stop here already.. Wanna go n watch movie.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 06 September 2010, Monday 05:02Am
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o.O

Title: o.O


Work as usually sux.. But at least it is much better then Thursday.. Anyway, it is still sux.. Hao fan la.. sigh!!


My head is still painful.. Which i dont know why.. Some more in office eat too much heaty snacks liao.. Having sore throat.. Too stress already.. We eat too much.. Nvm.. It will be better tomorrow.. I believe.. Hmm, later meeting Bee, Sze Rong, Joel, Darren, Jackie, Marcus, Xin You and Jian Ning.. We are all going over to Joel's place for gathering.. whoohoo..


Hmm, it's been age since i meet them.. The last one was class chalet (which is like erm.. 2 yrs back?).. I still remember i was awake the whole nite den we had steamboat bbq.. Soo funny sia.. Then bee and me was lam-ing around..


Im suppose to be at dear dear's hus but cos tomorrow(im mean later) im waking up early.. Cos i wanna go to the post office to collect item.. I remember i did not buy anything online liao le.. Some more i dont get bulky item de.. Funny.. Wonder what is that.. hahaha!!


Nothing to do liao le.. Ok la.. i go and watch movie.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 04 September 2010, Saturday 06:45Am
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:( :'( Headache

Title: :( :'( Headache


I can only said, FUCK.. All thanks to work.. (all work r the same la.. it is hw u manage it..) Worse is when.... Nvm, I will just shut up.. Well well well.. I cry for the 4th or 5 times due to work.. Fuck U... NB.. Today coffee dont help me at all.. I drank 3 cans plus now 4th one but im still soo stress up..


My head is FUCKING PAIN.. Awww.. Pain all the way frm head to eyes and to my neck.. The pain kills.. I think i overdose of coffee already, cos im hving intermittent chest pain.. Sigh!!!


Im trying to find something to do.. So that after work i can numb myself to forget about work.. Gaming and watching movie dont help.. Sigh!!! Guess i will have problem sleeping.. sigh!!


Bye!!!


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Copyright © 03 September 2010, Friday 05:14Am
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Monday blue... Another bullshit day

Title: Monday blue... Another bullshit day


Just had my shower.. To be honest with you.. Im super duper shag and sleepy.. Cos yesterday nv sleep well.. All Thanks to the diarrhoea and i do not knw why but i cough the whole nite.. But hey hey, today woke up, no more diarrhoea.. :D YEAH!!!


Work is just as shitty as it is.. Soo many problem. Sigh!! Customer is playing prank with me.. Everything is just soo screw up.. I cant do much.. Keep quiet and clean up the shit.. Clean it up for ppl..


I just notice when im serious im really very serious.. No one dare to come and disturb me.. Kinda super bad mood today.. System slow, system hang, cant login to system and etc.. Super duper fuck up.. Awww..


Anyway, later will be another day.. :( I wanna go and sleep already. Had eaten something and it is time to zzz.. Surprise to see me sleep early.. Go and guess what went wrong ba.. bye!!

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Copyright © 31 August 2010, Tuesday 04:19Am
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disturb me, Diarrhoea

Title: disturb me, Diarrhoea


Just now fall asleep while playing with my iphone.. NB kena awake by phone call.. Blocked call.. Then dear dear called me said boss looking for me.. What the fuck.. WHY always my OFF there is always something HAPPEN.. Spoil my mood.. CASE AGAIN.. -.-" Checked e-mail disappointed again.. 2 cases in the row... FUCK la..


This time round im nt worry i will kena fuck, I kena i also dont care..They not happy at most kick me out nia.. (im more than happy to accept :D) but im worry my colleague kena fuck.. Cos the last person to handle was him and no follow-up then customer callback kena me.. Siao liao la.. I hope no prob.. MAY GOD BLESS HIM...


I have been handling the case since then.. I did feedback to boss on the case.. Seek advice frm him.. Then after that been trying to reach customer but customer keep rejecting my call.. Now i believe he write in and complain (i heard all the big big bosses inside the loop..).. Cannot blame him also la.. Delay for soo long already.. If i were him, i cfm will get super angry as well..


Next case was about device issue, been helping customer SOO MUCH and ended up back to square one.. Siebe angry.. Im wondering if customer kena smoke again or what.. Shall call customer tomorrow n check..


Sigh!! im having diarrhoea.. After eating cup noodles.. something is wrong with the cup noodles.. LS till i pissed off.. >_<" I hope tomorrow im fine.. die die must go back to office.. Cos i need to settle my cases.. Sigh!!


Gal, when you free ah? I think i need to play some sport to de-stress.. Cannot take it anymore.. I going nuts soon.. Maybe can ASK KEL to go as well.. whahahaha..


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Copyright © 30 August 2010, Monday 04:39Am
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shag and boring..

Title: shag and boring..


Super shag.. ok blame myself for staying up still so late (early i mean).. I did fall asleep while playing iphone.. I think slept for few hrs.. But nvm i dont care la.. Anyway, today off.. Cannot play game.. Super boring.. Only can watch drama.. -.-"


Aww.. boring.. Sigh!! Drama drama and drama.. -.-" lazy to blog.. will carry-on maybe later.. bye!!


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Copyright © 29 August 2010, Sunday 05:39Pm
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Half day.. Happy Birthday Mum

Title: Half day.. Happy Birthday Mum


Just came back frm shitty place (OFFICE..).. No matter you take half day, MC and what so ever, work is still as shitty as it is.. Anyway, yesterday i took half day.. Cos my mum birthday..


Order her fav pizza hut.. LOL!! She just love to eat pizza hut.. lol!! Den im off to work.. -.-" I started work @ 9.45pm.. But reach office early.. At 1st tot can settle some cases before i start to ans call.. But im wrong.. -.-" nvm.. Forget it..


Sigh!! I really give up liao la.. Enf talking.. Action will do the job.. Anyway, im not sleeping again tonight.. Im sleepy but i dont want to sleep.. Cos.. nvm.. Long story.. I will be watching my drama again.. Anyway, im off tomorrow.. Hello coffee again.. Hmm, this is my 3 pack liao :D.. 4th pack up coming soon.. ok wanna go n watch drama .. Bye!!


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Copyright © 29 August 2010, Sunday 03:59Am
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Another fk up day..

Title: Another fk up day..


FUCK OFF is the only thing i can say.. Work SUX.. SYSTEM SUX.. PPL SUX... Like i said, say so much, wrong so much.. say so little, wrong so much.. Dont talk is still the best.. FUCK OFF!!!!


Why should i bother so much? I really dont know.. My mind is still thinking about work now.. ha.. I think i forget to do something just now.. NB... The task is nv ending.. Can say, i REALLY scare to ans call... The next call is always soo scary.. Even calling out is a big problem also.. I have a list of calls needed to be done.. Is either callback and kena fuck or thank you and goodbye (this mean problem resolve)..


Attitude attitude and attitude.. My head and throat somehow not being nice today.. BUT FUCK IT.. Guess Today i will be awake again.. I shall watch drama and enjoy my coffee.. Later another FUCKING DAY!!! Always praying and hopping for the best.. BYE!!


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Copyright © 28 August 2010, Saturday 04:06Am
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Another rubbish day...

Title: Another rubbish day...


Another rubbish(shit day) day at work, I really dont know what to say.. Just keep quiet ba.. I think that's the best thing to do.. Say so much you wrong so much, say so little you wrong so much.. so may as well SHUT UP...


Fucking stress up at work.. I know everyone is.. What to do.. Only give attitude problem lo.. Wo bu yao care already.. I was thinking thru, some ppl really take you for granted.. NB.. You go the extra mile to help and ended up ppl are asking for more.. -.-" I think im being too nice to customer already.. Being nice will give more problem... NB... FUCK UP


Sigh!! Feeling soo xin ku just now.. Wanted to throw out but i just cant.. A few times in office but just cant.. In cab and at home also.. -.-" All thanks to the motion sickness.. At work i dont know well, i feel dizzy.. zzzZzz.. Fk it..


care of much also pointless la.. Anyway, HELLO coffee.. That's the only thing that can at least cheer me up a little.. nth else...


I dont think i can sleep today.. My brain is thinking soo many things.. hmmm.. NVM ba.. Wanna go and watch movie liao.. BYE...


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Copyright © 27 August 2010, Friday 04:51Am
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Another stress up day...

Title: Another stress up day...


Another Stress day at work.. Yesterday was terrible, im wondering how many outgoing calls i have done as compare to incoming.. One incoming call already require me to do so many outgoing.. Well, reason was customer was promise callback but no one return and customer just dont trust you anymore.. This is the worse customer to handle which i have alot today.. All thanks to the money plan that they came up..


sigh!!! Really alot of fuck up thing at work.. Stupid!!! Pissed off at work.. Today, I was soo stress up till i almost cry.. FK!!!! Head was pain like FUCK also.. Sigh!! Later another day... Sigh!!! May God bless all of us..


Hmm.. Lately, i dont know why i have motion sickness.. Car sick is kinda common for me but depending on driver de, but lately i have car sick no matter who drive.. :( Now play online game also feel dizzy and feel like throwing out (which i dont throw out.. very hard I will throw.. Since young till now i think i throw out twice nia.. that's e xin ku part.. want to throw out but cant.. Awww...)..


Like now, Im just scrolling up and down on facebook and im feeling dizzy.. Something is wrong.. I dont have this problem at all.. FK!!!


Gonna watch my drama and sleep early.. Stupid damn shag... Gonna stop here.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 26 August 2010, Thursday 05:03Am
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stress...

Title: stress up...


Will keep it short and sweet.. Super stress up yesterday at work.. Sigh!! Some more they came up with stupid shit thing.. Money will not help and it will create more problem.. -.-"


Shit me and the damn system.. sigh!! I hope everything is ok.. Worry liao sia.. I make mistake.. big mistake.. I hope i get a gd new tomorrow.. But then chances are very low.. :( This is fuck..


As for my throat.. Well, still having sore throat but at least cough is getting lesser.. :D But fever is still on and off.. Sigh!!


Stop here ba.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 21 August 2010, Saturday 05:24Am
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huh what?

Title: huh what?


I will keep it short and sweet.. Damn day at work.. Damn everything.. All bullshit.. Like i said, i give up.. And i think i really will... Sigh!! Talk less better...
Coffee is still the best.. Hello coffee.. :D


Bye!!


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Copyright © 20 August 2010, Friday 04:31Am
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Messy mood..

Title: Messy mood..


Just had my shower.. Back to work already.. Super bad day.. Woke up throat is still damn painful and dwn with fever.. But heng, fever medicine save me.. But it is on and off.. FK!!!


Well, no mc or leave.. Just went back to work.. Work!! super fucking SUX... Everything is soo shit.. Esp with the damn throat i have it makes me damn piss off.. The more i talk the most painful it is and fk i cough more.. Worse was all calls needed me to talk alot.. SHIT DAY... Now i know why the doctor asked me to talk less..


Too piss off till i sent the wrong e-mail out. Do the wrong thing many times or i should said click the wrong thing and it makes me repeating the process so many times.. Worse is the damn SIEBEL SUX TO THE MAX.. "I hate Siebel and I want it to die in a fire!!!" Failure system.. SUX!!! BOOO BOOO!!!


Sigh!! I have enf of taking gd care of my throat.. It is just not getting better..I drink lots of water cos due to the pain and dryness in the throat i had and have been visiting to the toilet countless time.. It is fucking wasting my time to visit to the toilet.. So what for.. So, Hello to coffee.. (Throat is painful, but im in heaven now.. Coffee..:D) I really need it.. Been soo many days i haven drink it.. Yes, my throat pain like fuck.. It is still swelling on the right side.. No point taking care.. Give up.. Im not listening anymore..


Anyway,today, while on the way to work, i happen to do some search about throat infection and dont know why I happen to read thru things about asthma ->smoker->lung->heart failure.. Oh well.. Dear u better solve ur asthma and cough issue else dont kiss me.. Hello having asthma for 2 weeks or more? And you said you will sleep early, erm.. Ya.. ur sleep early is 6 or 7am in the morning (it so happen that yesterday i was awake by my sore throat, cough and dryness in the throat and i cant sleep.. just trying my luck to look for some1 to talk to and notice u r still online.. -.-").. I dont mind you game.. cos i do game as well.. But when u r sleepy, you should sleep (and u still haven recover frm ur cough and asthma.. so u should slp early..).. And you know urself very well, u need 8hrs or more of sleep.. Seeing you soooo sleepy, falling asleep while gaming, while working and suffering makes me heartache.. Sigh!! Nvm.. You solve ur asthma and cough issue 1st.. AND HELLO!! When r u going to visit to the polyclinic? Like i said, no matter what I still love you.. Love you soo deeply that it is heart-aching to see you suffering..


Sigh!! I have enf talking.. I wanna stop here.. Eat my medicine and off to bed.. Bye!!


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sleep, sore throat

Title: sleep, sore throat


Just woke up not long.. Going back to bed after blogging.. I have been sleeping the whole day.. Sunday after i blog i fall asleep till the next day.. Woke up eat, bath and off to bed again.. I have sleep more than 24hrs.. Was at dear dear hus since sunday..


Monday whole day i was sleeping.. Did woke up for awhile and back to bed again.. Feeling soo damn uncomfortable the whole damn day.. Eat and drink water, everything taste soo bitter.. :( Today did not went to work, cos im still dwn with fever and sore throat is still killing me.. Sigh!! The throat infection is causing alot of problem.. Dear dear went to work and i went home sleep..


Sleep half way, suddenly woke up and notice that i have case needed to callback today.. E-mail and sms dear dear for help.. Thank you dear.. And Thank you so much for taking care of me.. Sorry my dear..


I want a speedy recovery.. Right now, my throat is still killing me.. sigh!! Fk the antibiotic is not working at all.. Have try to talk less already... It's 2 weeks already and im still sick.. I was told i have slim dwn alot.. >_<" You can try for 2 weeks, eating porridge or nv eat at all, cfm you will slim down..


Sigh!!! If im not ok, hv to go hospital already.. Therefore, i really hope to get well SOON.. Tomorrow going back to work already... I dont care already.. ok ba.. I wanna go back to bed already.. Bye all..


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Copyright © 17 August 2010, Tuesday 12:40Am
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very bad throat infection

Title: very bad throat infection


Waiting for my damn hair to dry so that i can sleep.. Sigh! Today i took urgent leave.. (last min phone boss, so consider urgent leave) Wanted to took half day but my high fever and throat is killing me.. I went back to office cos i wanna settle some cases that i needed to do way before (else i would hv take mc..).. Sat i didnt went back to office to do OT cos im still sick and only woke up at around 4 or 5plus..


Sigh!! The case is still not settle.. NB!! Tell me hw to troubleshoot slow upload speed? It's expectation issue.. Heng customer is not available to ans my call just now.. If not i dont know hw to talk to him with my current condition.. Was told to return a call on Tuesday.. Sigh!! Fk up!!


Anyway, i went to see a doctor again.. Cos im dwn with high fever, still hving cough, flu and sore throat.. Went back to the same 24hrs clinic.. Dammit.. I waited for about 1hr++.. Damn uncomfortable.. Plus it was super duper cold.. ><" Some of them worse, waited for close to 2hrs.. ZzZz.. I nearly give up seeing the doctor.. Just wanna go home and sleep..


Well, the doctor said im having very bad throat infection.. That cause the high fever, sore throat, cough and flu.. He gave me 3 days mc.. WTF!!! He almost gave me more days.. (even if he give, at most i will take 1 day..) Anyway, i think i will still go back to work on Tuesday.. Doctor told me try not to talk so much.. He told me to do admin work that does not need any talking.. I told him straight. I cant.. Im working in call centre.. I needed to talk every sec, min and hour.. Lame shit.. Hw can i dont talk?


Sigh!! Today, quarrel with dear dear.. But everything is settle.. No worries.. Dear I PROMISE this will be the last time i do that.. Sorry! I love you.. Muack!!


Ok!! Got to go n sleep.. Cant take it already.. Bye all!!


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Copyright © 15 August 2010, Sunday 10:33Pm
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sigh

Title: sigh


Just woke up not long.. ZzZz.. yesterday wanted to play game.. Launch my game and skype with dear, ai ling and wei wei but i didnt talk.. Cos they are talking about their game.. Decided to join in later.. Who know after i launch my game and i fall asleep unknowingly.. ZzZz.. Till my mum came and woke me up.. >_<"


Then went to bed early lo.. Have been sleeping early.. Sigh!! Today woke up i tot im ok already.. But fk, i still hving inflammation, flu, cough and fever.. KNS!!!!!!!! Sigh!! This is so sucky..


Anyway, im thinking should i go back to office to do over time(OT) a not.. I have case need to follow-up.. But i have already warn myself that nv work hard.. But then, you guys should know im nt that type of person.. Once something is landed on my hand, die die i have to complete it nicely.. Dear dear, tomorrow want OT a nt?? Nvm la i shall see how.. Now im 50 50.. If im better i will go back OT...


Hmm, my mobile is out of contract already.. It is time for me to re-contract.. But i dont know should i take iphone 4g a not? Cos i heard another version coming out soon.. I dont know if it is true a not.. Yes, Iphone 4g look sux but the features are wonderful.. I go for features den the phone... Then my iphone 3Gs my mum will use it.. Cos inside have lots of games that she can play.. hahaha!! Sometime she will take my phone and play her game.. LOL!!! See how ba... At the moment im still waiting for the damn HR to give me my staff pass.. They took so long to make a pass.. Wonderful job done by them..


Ok ba.. I wanna stop here already.. Wanna game awhile den going out soon.. Bye all!!


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Copyright © 13 August 2010, Friday 4:47Pm
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Inflammation

Title: Inflammation


Just had my shower.. Sigh!! Today again suffer at work.. Sigh!! New system (Siebel) just SUX to the max.. -.-" My stupid throat, cough, fever and flu is not getting better.. It's getting worse.. FK!!!!!!!!!! Having inflammation.. Throat is super duper painful.. :( But i still have to work.. Have to talk every sec, min and hours.. :( Finally right now i can shut my mouth..


I think i have to visit to the doctor again later.. I cant stand the pain.. Hopping later im fine then i can save $$$.. I need a speedy recovery pls.. :(


Finally later and tomorrow off.. Sunday working.. Later meeting mei and triples for dinner.. Just so sudden that they wanna meet us for dinner.. Been long since we last met.. Finally can get to see them also.. yeah.. :D


Ok ba!! I wanna stop here already.. Dont want to blog more.. Like i said, i will try not to blog about work.. So ya.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 13 August 2010, Friday 4:43Am
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Kill me pls

Title: Kill me pls


Aww.. I wanna sleep but my cough and sore throat keep me awake.. :( Sigh!! Can someone just kill me pls? Feeling damn pissed off with my cough and sore throat and chest pain.. Fever is going up and dwn.. WTF!! This time round, it take so long for me to recover.. >_<" Aww..


yesterday went to work.. Whole body ache like hell.. Now it is still aching.. Dont know what happen.. Taken medicine but it doesnt help at all.. :( Suffering while working.. :( Air-con make it worse.. Esp my cough and flu.. >_<" FK up!!!!! Wanted to took half day, but was thinking better not.. Have already taken so many days of mc (if im nt wrong 5 days of mc plus 1 urgent leave..).. So decided to suffer at work..


When im sick, I will get damn pissed off... i get damn pissed off with customer and worse was the damn system "SIEBEL" (there is a group created on facebook by other ppl called "I hate Siebel and I want it to die in a fire!!!"..) is giving me / us lots n lots of problem.. Dun know hang hw many times.. This damn system is fucking making our life difficult..It said will make our life easy.. ALL BULLSHIT... It have been up for 10 days and till now it is still not stable.. They have been working on it for dont know how long (about a yr?) and there are still soo many problems.. Useless system.. Waste of time.. -.-"


Later another suffering day at work.. Im hopping for a speedy recovery.. Falling sick for so long is damn uncomfortable.. Ok!! I wanna go n try to sleep already.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 12 August 2010, Thursday 5:37Am
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Tired and weak

Title: Tired and weak


Just woke up frm sleep.. Yes, today i didnt went to work. Cos im still sick.. Sigh!! Same thing i set alarm to wake up.. Cos i wanna go to work.. But again, i didnt hear the alarm ring.. ZzZz.. I think my alarm did ring, guess i turn it off and went back to sleep.. Yesterday slept the whole day and slept super early im still so shag out.. Today woke up at 4plus.. -.-"


Woke up had something and eat medicine.. The damn medicine make me soo weak and sleepy.. Aww.. So again i slept the whole day today.. This time round the medicine are all so strong that i can just fall asleep unknowingly.. >_<"


My sore throat, cough, flu dont seem to be better.. Only thing that is better now is the phlegm and fever at least it is not so high already.. The phlegm medicine is super gd.. But it taste sux.. Anyway, tomorrow die die i must get back to work..


Just hopping to get well soon.. Have no appetite to eat.. Aww.. Even coffee i have no appetite for it..


Hmm.. Friday meeting mei and triples for dinner.. Been long since we last met.. Ok ba.. I will stop here.. Kinda lazy to blog... Bye!!


Ps: Dear I LOVE YOU!! MISS YOU!! MUACK!! (hope u r getting better well..)


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