speechless, hopeless, useless, helpless

Title: speechless, hopeless, useless, helpless


What a nice title i had.. :) Anyway, i dont know how to start.. Im soo lost.. Been asking myself alot of questions but i really cant ans it myself. ><" Sigh! Forget it.. i think im stress-ing up myself too much..


Health, dont wanna mentioned much, as usual cough.. Work i also dont want to talk much.. Just do whatever i can. Yesterday was worry about some issue but ended up i think im just thinking too much..


Sigh! Im just not in the mood for anything.. Sleep i just cant get to sleep. Yes im freaking fucking tired.. But i just cant get to sleep.. I dont know what to do sia..


Hmm, i shall go and watch movie till i fall asleep.. haha!


Miss dear so much.. Wanna call him but im scare. :(


Ok la.. EMO dont wanna blog already.. Bye!!


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Copyright © 31 May 2011, Tuesday 05:35AM
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no one will understand hw i feel

Title: no one will understand hw i feel


Irritating cough and flu is not going off.. The doctor did said i take very long to recover if i have cough and flu due to bronchitis. The specialist doctor also said that it could be due to when i was about to recover i got another virus attack and that leads to the long lasting cough. That might be the reason.. Everyone around me are coughing.. -.-" No worries, i will pump myself with lots n lots of water.


Im kinda hungry now. Only bread and cup noodle at home.. Which one should i eat? Sigh but i dont have the appetite to eat.. damn... Later i eat bread with ham n coffee maybe i will have appetite.. Excuses to drink coffee.. haha.


Tomorrow working already.. FK.. I sent e-mail ask ppl for help but no one reply and help. dammit.. Im gonna get screw by customer tomorrow.. I hope customer can understand.. Ppl keep saying work as a team, share the load but damn.. all bullshit. They esc to me i help all the way till they are back but who help me? Help only for just one day.. Sigh! U see la, how can i not check my e-mail when im on leave or mc? How can i rest well? Hw can i not worry? Then when customer call in and dispute, who's fault? the case owner fault. FK...


This is the reason why i dont like to ask ppl for help. 1st they get piss off which honestly i do but then i help all the way and not half way. (they get pissed off. This have been happening since day one..) 2nd they talk behind ur back (backstabber and it is still happening..). 3rd in return they will keep asking you for help for cases be it gd or bad. They take you for granted. While im not referring to everyone but "SOME".


I dont understand how ppl work. Wat are they thinking? Now i know why some ppl can go nut at work. Cos around them are all the selfish Singaporean. HUMAN ARE SELFISH. INCLUDING MYSELF.. THEY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES ONLY. WHOEVER DO THEM GOOD THEY TAKE GOOD CARE AND WATCH THEM AND WHEN THEY ARE USELESS THEY WILL TELL THE PERSON TO FK OFF..


Im so disappointed. Sigh! NVM.. For the freaking money.. We/I have no choice.. dear dear, u dont have to worry about what i mentioned here.. Just take care of ur HEALTH ESP.. Slp more, rest more and sleep early (u have been telling me all these but u r nt doing it.) U have been coughing these few days as well and pls watch ur diet.. Remember, mama, ur close buddy and maybe me need u.. (i only need ur advise) Stay healthy and be strong. We can do it.. :)


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Copyright © 28 May 2011, Saturday 07:59PM
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emo, freaking cough

Title: emo, freaking cough


I cant sleep well. Keeping waking up cos of block nose and cough. The phlegm is soo irritating.. Sigh! I dont know wat to do to lower my body temperature.. Turn on the air-con i cough more.. >_<"


Im kinda emo... >_<" FK it


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Copyright © 26 May 2011, Thursday 10:19PM
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feeling weak..

Title: feeling weak..


Just had another round of shower but my temperature is not going down. Yesterday i slept with air-con and turn on my fan to the biggest (but my mum turn e fan off), im feeling cold and my temperature is still not going down.. WTF.. I even try drinking ice water but its not helping it make my cough got worse and i was breathless.. Anyone knows anyway to bring down the body temperature?


Im down with running and block nose, cough, sore throat and high fever. Since Saturday to be honest. I tot sunday i will be fine but i almost fainted middle of the night. I woke up to go to the toilet after that i ended up sitting outside the toilet. All thanks to my mum for helping me all the way to the bed.


FK.. I was so happy my long long cough (for about 5mths+)seem much improvement and here come this virus attack.. WTF.. Helpless... After soo long of controlling my intake of cold drinks and coffee and all sort of rubbish all gone to waste.. cry...


I might need to go back to the doctor again tomorrow if my fever is not going away. My back hurts alot and feeling a bit breathless. I need to recover fast. Cos i need to get back to work.. On hands got a few cases needed to settle and we are shortage of manpower. I cannot be so selfish...


Anyway, i realize something which is seriously disappoint me alot. Sigh! This is just life. Humans are just humans..


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Copyright © 25 May 2011, Wednesday 01:54AM
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tired

Title: tired


Freaking tired.. Not feeling well also.. Vomited once just now. Yesterday cant sleep well.. >_<" Been coughing badly again.. I should say the cough is not going away. Completed my antibiotics long ago. But once i stop everything revert back to square one.. im also down with flu and breathless.. Need to use e inhaler before bed.. FK..


Anyway, im going to bed liao.. Will try to sleep.. I think later going out.. haha! I forget what i wanna blog already. nvm. I go and sleep.. Good nite to all. Bye!


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Copyright © 15 May 2011, Sunday 06:15AM
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shag, weak...

Title: shag, weak...


Im soo freaking shag... why? I just dont know why.. -.-" Yawn... I need more energy... Nth much to blog.. aww.. Bye!


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Copyright © 10 May 2011, Tuesday 11:22PM
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Freaking boring..

Title: Freaking boring..


Damn bored.. Sigh! Seriously i dont know what to do.. Game also nth to do.. Like login see see only.. It's always the same.. Well im nt hardcore like the rest and I think im sux at it.. :(


Anyway, going to er jie's grandmother wake later.. I think is at Clementi if im nt wrong.. Waiting for mei mei.. I dont mind staying there still late den go to work.. Just keep er jie accompany..


OH SHIT... On the 9 which is tomorrow i got doctor appt... FK.. I just remember.. But im working.. Siao.. How sia? Like that waste half day leave sia.. Take time off must payback.. Wow liao aaa.. Cannot take mc.. cos is just soo stupid.. Sigh!


Sigh!! BORING LA............... FK!!!!!!!!!


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Copyright © 08 May 2011, Sunday 10:52PM
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Entertainer

Title: Entertainer


Im just the entertainer.. Keeping quiet doesnt mean that u ppl can bully us..


Working so hard doesnt mean that u can get everything. Slacking more is still e best choice..


In short, im just the entertainer for every single thing..


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Copyright © 07 May 2011, Saturday 04:29AM
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Responsibility

Title: Responsibility


Yesterday im freaking damn moody and pissed off.. But.. Sigh! NVM... Anyway, what is customer service? What is technical support? Customer service + technical support = ?


Im asking this question for a reason. Im indicating my title as responsibility for a reason. Ppl are making me pissed off.. FK UP is the word..


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Copyright © 05 May 2011, Thursday 05:52AM
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